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迷茫的阶段

2012-02-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

来到这样的一个时候，终于明白何谓“另一个阶段”。
那即将是一个与现在的生活完全“走样”。
我。。。没准备好？为什么这么的。。担心？迷茫？
很多人都说，这是很正常的事。
这是决定未来的一步嘛~
不只是事业，是家庭，是未来！更是人生！
对我来说，现在不只处于在“十字路口”。。而是来到了一个陌生的地方，却也根本不知能往哪走？

一向想很多的我，比往常想得更多。
想像一个成年人做决定，准确，完整，潇洒的！
但前提是，要有标杆的人生，才能前进直达！
我。。。还没找到~
本来应该很简单的事，好像。。越想越复杂。
这几天，几乎进入了崩溃状态。
一直想哭，一直哭不完的感觉。
太多事忙了，至今我的新房还没完全整理好。
心房，也忙着记挂不同的事物。
连本来不会记挂的人，开始困烦着我的思绪。
完全的失控了。。我不知道，原来，我在乎~
总是该解决。但我真的不想在这个时候多一个烦恼！
我精疲力竭了！
等我稳定些吧。（一直等，其实是等待我的冲动！）

最近寻求神的时间更多了。
因为，我知道，他是我唯一的依靠。
真的很感动，他总是及时地安慰我，提醒着我。
虽然，我还没看见他指引的方向，但我等待。。
待生活恢复正规应该会开始禁食了。希望我的胃还受得住！
这老朋友，真的太爱我了。
最近探望我的时间越来越频密！可能我真的太忙了！
一直想患上“厌食症”不想吃。可以一整天只吃半粒包，或者半碗蘑菇汤。。
肚子真的很饿，却怎么也不想吃！疯了我！

阿！！健康！多么重要！
身边的人好像一个一个不断出事。
我的担心，一直担心不完。
妈也会在这星期六开刀动手术。。我真的很担心，却不懂可以做什么。
祷告。。祷告。。
年纪比我小的姐妹，突然昨天告诉我乳房长瘤。
下星期也会开刀，验证是良性与否。
看着她的恐惧，我真的很难过！
祷告。。祷告。。

生命，完全的“未知数”。
同样一句话，“珍惜当下！”
每个人对于珍惜的定义不同。。我，太过“多情"了！
不懂是优点？缺点？
我只知道，有时真的不是件好事！
就如现在的我，有太多的牵挂~太多太多~

好了，心路历程！
写下心情！感觉好多了！
恩，看看照片吧！:)

其中一个上课的打扮！打扮会让心情亮丽！

阿公超爱吃麦当劳冰淇凌！每次吃两份！

没事！纯爱喝！

十二点多了，你还酱的样，真不知道要不要放上FB？lol

收拾行李的时找出了很多宝！这是我所收藏的戏票，外加一张eyes of M'sia 的车票~

原来，我有两盒月饼盒的卡片，里面全是小学储存至今！
有贺年片，生日卡片，小字条，信件，这是其中一盒里的。。情信！哈哈

第一次用这么贵的沐浴露，RM80！怎么能不拍张照？
皮肤敏感是很“贵”的病！

新房早上八点的窗景.

星期日下午第一次驾妈妈的新车，Hyundai Tucson 去拜年！

掰~再聊！

Matthew 11：28-30

2012-02-01T01:07:00.001+08:00

当精神与体能都来到一种精疲力竭的时候。。

“凡劳苦担重担的人，可以到我这里来，我就使你们得安息。我心里柔和谦卑，你们当负我的轭，学我的样式，这样，你们心里就必得享安息。因为我的轭是容易的，我的担子是轻省的。”

没有什么比这良药更为有效。

当然，时间非常缺乏的状况下，我管它个三七二十一，我今晚要睡饱饱！

什么事，养足精神，继续冲刺！明天再说！

1.2.2012
新居入伙之第二夜！晚安！

2012-01-29T17:30:00.001+08:00

发自内心的，觉得自己很笨
什么都不会！为什么什么都做不好
累了~恨起自己到底怎么了？？？？？？？？？
T.T
不想让眼泪停止掉落的感觉。。是因为，我以为，随着眼泪的淌下，我可以好一点。。

superlady for the day!

2012-01-29T01:45:00.002+08:00

tired tired tired! but still writing down.
if not ah..sure forget liao..lol
too much complicated feelings mashed up today.

last night slept for 4hours only..
thats why fall sick liao..
then mum went to hospital..
sending grandma to clinic early morning..accompanied her four hours for the consultation..
went to cinema help family buy tickets..
then rush to prac..manatau need to delay til night..
then multi-date for the night..combined at last!
things need to be planned before going back..
wah wah wah!!today's schedule..like sial
(lazy to explain one by one)

what feelings also encountered just in one day..
lazy,anger,hunger,pain,tired,mad,stress,happy,enjoy,miserable....
walao~thats y memorable! =p
still have tons of things to do 2ml!
gosh..my mind pls get sleep now! because your body is already exhausted!!
fuh~too many things to figure out in mind..still active.
ok..i know i will have dreams tonight.
i duwan sweet dream, i also dwn night mare..
i just wanna forget once i get up from bed! eheh!
alright,night peeps!

2012-01-27T00:53:00.001+08:00

过年过年，忙了这么多天，真想让所有的事情告一段落~

但还有许多未完成的事啊~~！！

想自己静下心来，不懂为什么，想好好的哭一场！

大概是神经错乱，荷尔蒙激素泛滥！>.<

长大了？开始不像小时候对新年的期待？

没有完烟花放鞭炮。。没有开心拿红包。。没有穿不完的新衣裳。。

没有完全放松的时刻！

我只想。。什么都不想！！让我好好放下一百个心，可以吗？！！

Eppi Cny

2012-01-22T00:29:00.001+08:00

It reach the traditional time to come all around the dinner table and have a warmth dine.

What is in your mind?

I see 'red' warnings! My fyp submission date is near! ><

Anyway, have a wonderful spring break! Gong hee gong hee!

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美女厨房

2012-01-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

ehehe..back to the Kampar land three days and two nights dy!
im staying at Agape (a sisters ministry house) for a week of time.
the reson staying here is: 1. avoid paying full payment for whole month for my new hostel
2. spent more time with my shepherd before she leave Kampar
well, my dearest shepherd (my da jie)is going to leave the land and going to Nilai to support church there.
duh..this is not the main reason..hahas..shes going to get married soon..so go over there and start to live with my da jie fu first..plan their things together lo..LOL
thats y..how reluctant am i also need to let her go~want her to be good also ma..=)
my next shepherd will be the church leader..eheh!
great challenge...! =p

hmm..its so good to be here,again.
with all my bros and sis.
quite a lot of new faces here..that i never see before in the church.
means they are growing!woohoo! praise God!
so i need to catch up with them lo..hahas..

errr..im done with my new timetable and i have NO CLASS for monday!yeah~!
however, today i did a lot of things also..
early morning went to con sult doctor for my skin allergic thing. :(
poor me..dactor say skin too sentsitive~ last time sensitive to dust..now plus weather dy..>.<
"cold arthritis skin"..oh God..heal me!!!!
ok then..i headed to danish office to settle my new hostel stuff.
and finally! i cook for the household tonight!
i missed cooking that~~~much!
i don't care nice or not..i just feel like cooking and "feeding" them to eat! =p
perhaps..not bad kan? hoho!

according to the research, a dish should be contain of five colors of material.

see! i have more than that!!hahas..

lets see what i have tonight!tee-hee!

this is halved done by others.

very healthy one..though it doesn't looks like..=p

super like the mushroom wih egg taufu!!

mah fav dish! i can cook different way with my beloved potatoes! bwahaha!
and the dark soy is so important here!!!=p

and so..i called it a day! ^^

tomorrow will be my first class in final trimester~

2012 first resolution: graduating!!!

wish me luck!X.O.X.O

心灵大扫除

2012-01-14T11:37:00.002+08:00

好啊！到了收拾心情，迈入人生中最后一个学期的时候了！
想想自己到底在这个学期里干了什么“好事”，来个小整理哦~

工作上也不多说了，欲知详情，我可以呈上我的报告！ =p
至于“身”方面，前阵子好享瘦下来了，过后又胖回去。
人生厚，总是“起起落落”咯！
下定决心，好好注意饮食了！
吃得开心，吃得健康！还要省钱！
好说一毕业，就地成为无业游民，兼负债累累！>.<
何时是我的出头天啊？！！！

说到“心”方面，我真得学会了很多功课。
忍耐的极限，心情起伏的控制，当然，此时此刻的心情，还不太受控制！=p
真的很担心自己能不能顺利毕业列~你说呢？
我说，现在开始加油咯！
距离提交毕业研究报告的时间还有一个月多，这会是个紧张的时刻！
好吧，就算顺利毕业了，又如何？
在哪里起步阿？又像过去大城市闯一闯，家人最想我去的是槟岛咯~
虽然我还蛮喜欢这个城市，但自从回家车以后，天啊那儿的路啊，窄到~~~~！！！
我接受不到咯~吉隆坡赛车还说至少道路是宽的，槟城阿，躲也没法躲！
地面有限嘛。。无奈！
更可怕的是，我家母亲大人竟然会希望我在那儿“落地生根”。
说她以后可以常上来逛街。。=.=|||
最恐怖的是，我竟然从他口里听到“想在五年里抱孙”这种话！晕！
他说五年后已经五十多岁了，老了窝~
可是，我现在连八字都没有一撇呐~是想给我压力噢？！
完了，嫁不出就只好生蛋了！！

“灵”方面哦，可以说收获最多鸟！
万分感谢神，给予我这一份“命定”。。让我体验不一样的突破！
一直担心没法在这里服侍，完全没有这一回事！
不只参与了伴唱一角，打鼓表演样样有！^^v
最开心的是能够和大家打成一片！
现在，不舍得教会的弟兄姐妹阿~期待大家一起成长的时候！
家里方面呢，也进步了！
大方承认我，要，去，教，会！
虽然，有时候会骂，会阻止下，但我已经很感恩了！
相信，有跨了一步！继续前进咯！！！
种种不一样的体验，神都透过非常有创意的方式来向我显明。
就像上个礼拜的牧师分享信息的时候，我有个这样的体验……
本来我还在心里想“这个牧师讲道一直说冷笑话的，很显咯~”
但当我慢慢停下去的时候，了解了他其中的意思，是话中有话！
心里萌生了小小的“敬佩”！;P
最后得了个启示，我不可以把自己看得太重，应该在深的带领下，让“其他”住进来~
棒吧？=）
习惯了太平教会的不一样，习惯了相处模式不一样，习惯了"习惯"！

怎么样？还算精彩吧？！
三个月来“身，心，灵”的体验，成长不少啊~（略带老练的语气，哈哈！）
此时的我，心情是充满着感谢的，是快乐的，也是轻松的。
走！咱往下一站去看看！XD

a very good song.pls listen! =)

说不上的难过

2012-01-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

突然，对于未来的未知数，开始迷茫。。
想起了这首歌。。

原来，像房子一样要 [清空]，才能找到被占据的 [空间]，心房也一样！

心灵加油站

2012-01-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

成熟的象征，不只是外表。

而我，向往更高更阔的地方去。。。

然而，这时的我，在意了。

在意的不只是别人的眼光，更是自己对自己的批评。

把一切化为进步动力。。好吗？

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who you are?

2012-01-09T23:14:00.001+08:00

im so happy just because im satisfied with my new hair style!!
well,its so much healthier and natural!!
neither curl or straight!hahas..its rebonding the new born hair and remain the old curls!love love love!hehe
most importantly is they became more silky and smoother dy!

some few takes before my new look!eheh!

love my newbie! XD

剪去旧的，不要的，迎接新临的！
再来在新的一年增添色彩！
最后也保留美好的！=）
this is how i describe my hair now!hahas.
short hair gonna delay til my convo!hehe..hopefully sun sun li li graduating this year!
awww~what a lovely night! ^^

p/s: recently feel so tired ti write..lol. academic reports are too much for me! >.<

new plan!

2012-01-01T01:50:00.001+08:00

耶和華說：我知道我向你們所懷的意念是賜平安的意念，不是降災禍的意念，要叫你們末後有指望。-- 耶利米書29章11節

Welcoming the blessed year with love,hopes,and joy!

Did you ever think of that? If you can use one word to describe 2011, what would it be?

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你好啊 2012

2011-12-31T09:16:00.001+08:00

我的新年愿望是：我想要一份实在的拥有……

对不起

2011-12-29T00:17:00.001+08:00

今天，特别的期待那“三个字”的出现。。

“我爱你”？不管用！

是三个可以溶化人心，化解误会，解除尴尬，打消不快，让世界更和平的三个字！

但是，我知道。。不行这样！

永远，选择在别人请求原谅前，先原谅。

这正确的教导，对身为“人们”的人们。。的确不简单。

一次一次。。选择先原谅，放过自己，也放过别人。

好吧，再一次，明天的天明，我的心际，要更辽阔！！！

[ 秘密 ]

2011-12-28T08:27:00.000+08:00

如果，闭上眼，我可以把枕头幻想成你。。。

那么，我在第一时间，想把住在心里已久的 [秘密] 全盘掏出。。。

这个圣诞不一样

2011-12-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

悲喜交错的圣诞。。。

不是盛装打扮。。。

不是火鸡盛餐。。。

不是庆祝聚餐。。。

不是华丽装饰。。。

这一个圣诞，之所以不一样。。

是我在短短的一个星期内，体验了各种人生“酸甜苦辣”。

满心感恩，我有机会能够参与教会的礼拜服侍，那是我一直很担心的。

但，神依然成就了！

乐事，莫过于献身服侍敬拜！

人生中第一次尝的火鸡，21年来，第一次，而且还要使一个礼拜吃三只！

老实说，不是很美味，不管是三星级饭店烹调的，还是吉隆坡六星级饭店烧烤的。。都一样！

对于“铁齿”的我来说，吃马铃薯泥还比较满足！^^

而正当我把全副心机放在教会的节目里的时段，我也看见，听见许多生老病死的噩耗。

病逝的噩梦后，继而连三的。。我在这圣诞体验了。。忧伤。

其中最让我感伤的是教会的一个妈妈，我虽然不是很认识她，但透过她的儿女，我们有说过几次话。

在我的印象中，她，一个非常疼爱孩子的母亲。

上个礼拜还看见她在教会里服侍，又看见他们家人旅游的照片。。

突然过了几天，得知她躺在医院不省人事了。

我的心，震了震，

我的魂魄，惊了惊，

我的人，根本慌了慌！

第一个问题，怎么办？

一切都来得太突然了，从来，你不会再有时光倒流的机会！

这个星期，我竟然站在躺在病床上的她身旁，唱圣歌给她听。

看着她难过的样子，我的泪自然的淌下。

所有亲戚朋友都开口叫唤着她。

“惠阿，赶快醒来！你的孩子在等！你还有很多事没做!"

"妈，快起来，你已经睡了两天了！”

我激动了！看着她的心跳银幕显示，从心跳每分钟120不断的上升至126。（普通人是70-80）

我知道，她听见了！她激动的神经反应了！

在他的面无表情里，眼角留下了一滴泪，我知道，她努力了！

每个人都在等待神迹的到来！

不幸的，第二天早上，她的心脏撑不住了。。

靠着一支强心针，从早上，捱到了中午，直到教会的弟兄姐妹场玩了她最爱的诗歌，她。。结束了这一生。。

“耶和华是我的牧者”，她归天了！

当我接到这噩耗的时候，我吓呆了，本来打算再去医院探访的，现在。。

我不懂应该怎么安慰她的儿女。。这是我最放心不下的。。

深深地感叹，静静的思考。

“末日”就快来了！

身为基督徒的，我们真的剩不了多少时间。。还可以救多少灵魂？！

我知道，这些种种的发生，不是偶然。

是一个真实的提醒！

。。。从来，没有过一个这样的圣诞。

这不但是一个值得感恩的节日，更是爱人的时候，宽恕的时刻，警醒的关键！

一个关乎万民的消息，传遍全地，从你，我，开始。。。

梦魇

2011-12-23T10:04:00.000+08:00

终于明白，那首歌的歌词为什么这么写。。

“想你有时会缺氧，脸红呼吸不正常。。”

当我梦见一个自己不想梦见的人，还要是恶梦的时候。。

我真的比缺氧还难过！

梦魇。。。到底是怎么一回事？

p/s :昨夜梦见“某人”病逝，还有梦中梦，当时完全分不清是真是梦..哭惨了我! >.<

count down!!

2011-12-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

1 more day to submit monthly report!
3 more days to turkey dinner!
6 more days to end my internship!
7 more days to the celebrations!
9 more days to submit my report!
10 more days to complete a chapter of fyp!

yuu~hoo~time is so tight now!
and i just wont dry up my hair, not even comb it, and start rolling on the bed with my blanket now!
oops..give me some slack time! =p

缓

2011-12-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

你有看过双眼暴红丝，黑眼圈深至满月状的我？
现在我又会带这个状态啦！

现在这时候，我才刚冲好凉，头发在滴水，双眼惺忪，偏头痛不断。。更糟糕的是胃病复发！
我才刚回到家！！等下还得做报告。。
忙了一阵天，是不断的！算算有几小时。。。是十六！
让我说说，刚得知我必须参与教会每天的排练。。每天！~我还是第一次在主日服侍。。哈！
这个圣诞，我会有个不一样的。

我。。。会。。。一个人。。。过。。。吧？
家人应该会下吉隆坡，我，除了教会庆祝服侍，还有一大堆的报告。。
糟糕鸟~时间不够用！
其实，还真害怕这种一个人过圣诞的感觉。。
不知道，那一天。。我会有什么感觉。。我会在哪？
不敢想~

从今天起，应该会减少更新部落格厚~还蛮享受这种忙碌！神的恩待！ ^^
请敬请期待我的另一波挑战！
拜！赶报告去！

遗梦

2011-12-13T22:46:00.003+08:00

昨夜梦田，经历了非常值得我深思的梦。
梦里，问了个问题。

“如果你离开人世了，你的生命，留下了什么遗憾？”

梦里，我闪过了一些片断。。断断续续的。。迷迷糊糊的。。快速的。。熟悉的。。
我知道，那是我的憾事。

醒来之后，仔细思考这个问题，发现，我有好多遗梦（不是梦遗！！ >.< ）
数朵应该实现的梦，如今化为乌有。
生命的遗憾，一个家，一个救赎，一个成就，一个他。。

我自问，如果我的生命仅剩下今天一天而已，我还有时间填补这些空洞吗？
我应该设法找出哪个答案？*无解呀*

感谢神，接着这梦，再一次提醒了我。
每一天的重要性，每一小时的珍贵，每一分秒的难得。
抓紧！把握！

深呼吸~辽阔的心情，我爱你！
亲爱的上帝，谢谢你！
宝贵的生命，掌握你！

大家，让昨天成为你的骄傲！今天不嫌麻烦！明天不再制造遗憾！

As you wish..

2011-12-10T20:23:00.002+08:00

突然看到这几个字出现，突然想到了一些事。

而浮现在我脑海的是这些：

"As you wish...", i kick start the journey;
"As you wish...", that's something i just can let it be.

依莫？是有被气到啦最近！
事事不顺，脾气暴躁，埋怨声不断。
突然觉得自己很挫败，烂人毒蛇的，不喜欢邪恶的自己。
教训：当你烦心的时候，每件事都自然（repeat: automatically ^^v) 不顺心。所以挫败感就愈大！
嗨，又到了做人生功课的时候啦！
你们，学会了吗？

what to do?
its part of life!!

2011-12-08T07:50:00.001+08:00

Psalm 51:10- Create in me a pure heart, O God,and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

现在我家老板日渐严重,公司状况百出！
我都快受不了!
每天，我们都得更新自己的心情!
喜乐, 我又来找你了！^^


认真的表情真的比较有魅力？ =p

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我的苹果？你的苹果？

2011-12-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

近来的城中热话，在畅谈“那些年，我们一起追的女孩”这部电影。
在年轻人广泛的讨论之下，引起了我的好奇心。
真的有这么好看吗？好吧，我给三颗星！哈哈
不知道是不是期待太多，我觉得，这部电影只处于“还好”。
但不得不说的是，它--经典之作！

"You are the APPLE of my eyes. "
为什么是苹果呢？我反复思索，终于。。
初恋，苹果光滑亮丽的表面，让人不禁想尝一口！
但一口咬下，哦！是甜的，也是酸的！
美丽，却包含辛酸遗憾。
（告诉你，众多味道中，我最不能忍受酸和辣！味蕾作祟！所以，人生观应该也一样！哈！）

我喜欢戏里最后的一句话--“祝福你，我的青春”
它带给我的信息不只是一种遗憾，更是一种得来不易的人生功课。
我不想像柯景腾和沈佳怡的错过。
因为我害怕我不能祝福。
不好意思呐，我很老实得承认我的私心。
害怕承受嘛，我只想成为沈佳宜--被祝福的哪一位！
时机，是要把握的。
不要说你没有被寄予机会。
因为，机会是留给有准备的人。
错过了，是因为，你没有准备好。
不想有遗憾？请准备好，再珍惜。

怀念！

还有看出了导演的用心，每个剧情还蛮细腻的带出背后的意思。
就像他们在上英文课的时候年的哪一段，"inspites of all difficulties and frustration at the moment, i still have a dream."
很有意思也~
当然，这部戏，搞笑的部分大多都是那些hamsup hamsup 的剧情。
看着的时候，我还真怪不好意思的！=p

哈哈，我还有这样的时候！

想想，在我那些年的时光，还真像拍偶像剧！哈哈
你懂那些剧情？
看到心仪的对象的时候，画面自动“慢动作”。
上课晃神的时候。
女生们互诉心事的时候。
牵到小手就像触电的时候。
亲吻的时候就像天空展放烟火的时候。
失恋，就像悲伤的背景音乐不停的播送。
种种，种种，俗语说得好，“人生如戏，戏如人生”！

看我们的挫样！

我喜欢作者形容“那些年”的引用。
谁没有"那些年"啊?
我想，我不太能背这戏感动也许是因为九把刀的观点是来自于亲身（男孩）的经历。
但是，我相信，在自己的青春里，每个人都是主角！
而我，在我的故事里，我不是沈佳宜，我是李嘉馨。
那些年，一群小伙子上拉律山游山玩水的时光；
那些年，中秋节到太平湖点蜡烛的幼稚；
那些年，小女生情窦初开的时候；
那些年，面对毕业的不舍，却抱有梦想的时候！
这些。。是我的故事。
你的呢？

现在变这样！=p

翻相簿竟然发现我“私藏”很多别人的照片！天啊！觉得自己很傻！
现在不知道怎么物归原主。哈哈
还有这个。。。

这是我。。。妈！像吗？

好咯，今晚开谜底！

答案是。。。睡觉的时候！

因为睡觉的时候，你不能珍明自己有没有说梦话，发梦，打呼，踢被？

哈哈，很傻的答案？

真的叻，如果你睡觉，就是你懒惰的时候，懒惰要怎么证明自己？

p/s: 所以，陈思颖！打起精神读书去！=p

强者 vs 弱者

2011-12-05T00:01:00.001+08:00

每个人心中都有一个强者，一个弱者。
只要成功驾驭意志力的，强者就会出色！
这部短片很不错，虽燃剧情拖了点，但意思总算带到了。=）
梦想，在你手中！
证明自己？别待明天！

p/s: 我想，我们应该只有一个时候不能证明自己。。。知道是什么时候吗？
情追看下回分晓！=p

梦 | 醒时分

2011-12-02T21:45:00.001+08:00

发现自己，变得越来越没有信心。
曾经，这是一个梦。
我不懂，在如何找回那一股原有的冲动。
谢谢一些人给我的鼓励和肯定。
但如果我没有找到自己“声音特质”的那一天，永远我无法肯定自己。
我，应验了，人会随着声音，技巧，时间，历练，而改变。
发现，声音越来越低沉，中气不足的自己，还不时地“温习”。。
想要找到别人熟悉的自己，反复练习，这。。还会不会是个梦？

p/s: 还真的很气馁，自己一直找不到队的感觉！urh~!曾几何时，我也可以轻松自如的唱歌？

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i am a better man because of You

2011-11-30T20:59:00.001+08:00

smile and change the world!

do you realize the power of smiling?
i encountered it once again today.
as usual, i tend to enjoy my working life and keep my joy no matter what.
"you should be happy. you see Lee is HAPPIER. you should not looks sad all the time."
the queen told one of my colleague about that.
actually i din't hear it, i was doing the job on hand.
but right after this sentence, another colleague just comment on me.
"wow jiaxin, i din't know that you have such great performance until the boss can praise you in front of others."
"huh?is it?when?"
"just!she said........."
this is what happened today!
jealousy?i don't know whats wrong with her.maybe shes just not meant it.
i din't get an anger on her but this took me into another thought.
thank God i am able to make people around to feel the joy inside me.
i don't have to tell anyone i am happy by saying "hey,i am happy!"
smiley. that is such a gift from God !!
i don't want to draw myself into bad mood with just the load tasks or anything.
i want to get myself enjoy enough and appreciating everything i have.
and i think theres nothing wrong with it.
and you think people din't see it?they even feel it.
i know,others maybe they will showed up a bit of frustration on their face.(of course boss knows it)
sure i have frustration too. but i wont let it spoil my day.
that is so not efficient and effective to carry on the work!seriously.
when i made mistake, i smile.
when i look into anyone's eyes, i smile.
when i respond, i smile.
when i talk, i smile.
when i listen, i smile.
and thats why, the queen see me as HAPPIER.=)
everyone dislike to listen the nonsence of the queen.
when they get smart and frustrated, they don't respond and avoiding eye contact with her.
but for me, i gave her a smile as responding, thats it.
this is a manners la c'on. how can you don't look at the person while he or she is talking to you?
anyway, i really thinks that a smile can change the world.
thats how i see it, do it, and i enjoy it! ^^ praise God for that!

p/s: no offense people! im just writing down what i think. you can be you. but if you're wiling, try out the smiley method, it brings you to better. ;)

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stormy situation

2011-11-29T20:15:00.001+08:00

well well well, fyi one of my colleague has resigned and yest was her last day.(forced to)
okie, this is kinda long story and im really lazy to start it right from the beginning.lol
erm she has been worked for more than 3 years, yeh a permanent worker there.

right at the first day of our work, the QUEEN told us not to stay near with her.
was told that she always cheat and she is a fool.
and that time we just follow the instruction but not really isolated her like virus la.
we just avoided to ask her questions.
and the queen is really dislike her until the stage i can say she hates her.
everything done by her, she will show us(everytime we enter her room,mostly is showing and telling us all the stories)
she thinks that she've been fooling her for 3 years.
honestly, we can't judge and we can't stand any side because we still don't know which is the truth.
she did a lot of mistakes, which we think that she is very careless.
but sometimes really the mistakes were too horrible. and thats why the queen will just cite her that shes in her plan.
the queen is way too sensitive.(no offense)
u can't imagine how mad she is until u've been told bout her thinking.
even theres flies or butterflies appeared in the office, she will said it was a curse!which is curse by her!
OMG~that was such a joke.
and in the other way round, the queen keep on repeating that she is a christian,and nobody can beats her because her God is almighty.
but why?why is she keep on suspecting?
huh..she sometimes did ruined my day.
til now,everyday i never missed out the chance being called in to her room.
and the times now is going in alone most of the time dy.
she says, "because you're a christian, so i'll tell you more."
ok thats good, i have this identity.
but is this gonna be good to me for at the early morning i will be listening all this nonsense and i can say nothing about it?
i feel pathetic over all this.
wanted to help but i don't know how..she is so insecure!!

the resignation is good for her. she is really patient by holding on all the humiliations by the queen. this is the scene we see by our own eyes.
we din't know whether she did something or its just nonsence.
for me, i just wanna treat everybody fair and nice. because i don't have the authority to judge.
intense to neutralize the atmosphere there and i thought i can bring colors.
yes, i guess i did my part.
we're friends now but sadly she left.
reluctantly i hope that she can get a better offer and enjoy her work next time.

so, now, whats the situation in the office now?
another two trainee will be leaving this week too.
totally we have just three trainee, one permanent worker and one secretary in the office.
and this is year end man. account closing period.
not only carry on with the portions left over but take up the responsibilities as a permanent workers.
phew..theres both good and bad sides la.
"i know u like to learn so i let you learn more."the boss always train me by throwing this sentence to me.lol
i mean i appreciate all this opportunities given, with abit of shivering.hahas.
y?she trained me to collect files and keeping files for two hours.
sounds easy right?
but theres ten over cabinets, twenty over shelfs and drawers..you'll be finding all those according to the name, some with code(better), but some don't.
they're arranged according to the alphabets but not in sequence anymore because the cabinets are all FULL!
everytime i open the cabinet, the files are like mudslide!
so dizzy to find out ONE file and somemore need to squat down stand up walk in and out!
and u know la..my memories are limited.
n the queen wanna train me to better so she will give me four company names each time and i need to memories and hand her the files.lol
hard eh! new and all weird weird names!

"ok..improved dy ma!good!" the queen just praised me in the second hour.LOL
my fingers are now all cuts and slashes by all the files and paper,pain eh!
and i have skin allergic for almost 3 months dy. now still plus all these dirty files with dusts!gosh~everyday also itchy one.(taken medicine and cream still not recovering.they said this is season allergic??)
lol..today i somemore went for a business travel to simpang..went to bank..
many things to do..my muscle so pain now.and i haven't finish my reports!!!>.<

she boughts RM40 fruits for us.twice dy.

the cute things on the bouquet of the queen.
and she gave it to me.

she asked me to buy a cake(she paid)
when she know it was ah Lai's birthday
and allowed us to back one hour earlier on saturday!
1kg of ice-cream cake.nice but hardly finish haha

i love ciku! =p

so as a conclusion..im kinda enjoy with all these business.hahas..better than the routine job for me.(yes i siao siao one!who cares? =p)
i really hope someday the queen can really find out a clue for her purpose in life.
actually shes treating us very good one.she bought quite a lot of foods for us eh.
all not cheap one lo. haiz..what to do?nobody is perfect.
pray for her lo..(so many times this appeared into my mind during the prayer time..)
i hope God can use me to bring something different to the place too!
at least til today, i have granted "cute", "silly", "good", "sampat", "brave"...ok!i'll take all this as compliments! hahas! ^^

一物二用，一体二面，一像也有二照！=p

2011-11-28T23:37:00.001+08:00

im not a star

2011-11-27T20:51:00.001+08:00

still,i am not a star!

^^
but im now trying to shine like stars!

i don't care what and how you are thinking about me.

yeh i mean you!

because im happy being me! X)

j.o.y j.o.y

this is what it means..

Jesus first, You youself last, and Others in between~

lalalalala~

p/s: *blink blink* i really thank God for keep on reminding me the joy in Him with these few weeks' sermons. love my weekends peeps! and im busying with my class stuff and report this few days. update soon. check it out! muacks! i can shine like how my braces shine too! wahaha..

- 哲学 -

2011-11-24T20:55:00.001+08:00

有人说，我的人生观很深奥，很“哲学”。

其实，我自认，我没有天生聪明，没有过人之处，心地不够善良，人品不够好，数理是平水准，脑筋没比别人转得快，反应比别人慢，圣经基础也没打稳，声音也没有比别人强，艺术细胞不够活跃，脸蛋平平无奇，身材庸提，没有高人一等的见识，更没有完美流畅的文笔……
但是，我把这些林林总总的“我”，组装好，完整地体验人生哲学。
对我而言，人生观，用眼睛阅读，用耳朵听见，都不必用心体会，亲身经历来的强烈!
不管是身在追尖端的高峰，还是停滞在幽幽低谷，请设身处地，静心地去想想。
天空的鸟儿不会偶然的飞过。
脚下的蚂蚁不只是忙碌的走过。
“他们”的出现，是在你的生命点缀出个样的火花！

细细的观察，深深地品尝。。身边的每一个人，事，物，用自己的生命换取真正的哲学，才是最棒的！
虽然，我没有别人眼中“看起来”那么聪颖，但我觉得我还是会聪明一时的哦！ =p
只是大多时候，可能比较笨……>.<
但，我是独一无二的嘛！谁叫我的神那么有创意呢？^^

独白

2011-11-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

今天的午餐，在同事间的茶余饭后之佳话闲谈时间，在我心里冒了小小的独白。

看着他们在车里的互动,忽然觉得那对情侣，好活在他们的世界！

在同一个空间里，他们好像在另一个时空里，不再状况中~

顿了顿，让我想了想，是不是每对情侣都是一样？

然而，我发现，不是的。

是我们自己本身的个性，决定你的世界有所辽阔。

每个人的个性都会局限一个“个人世界”。

比如说，一个不善于打交道的人，他们的世界，也许是网际网络，但也有空间的存在，他们，就是在那仅有的空间享受那存在感。

相对一个比较外向的人，他的世界，可以是无限，但也许，不会有人真正了解他的内心世界，他，个人空间不再出现。

对于一对情侣，也许他们很在乎身边的人，但往往没有完全的看清楚整幅画的细节，因为他们，把爱人放大了，挡住了其他的风景。

每个人的世界，由自己决定，他能有多辽阔，能有多宽远。

有时候，我们也会把自己放大。

请警记，上帝创造的不只是你，使这个国家，这颗星球，其它行星，宇宙万物。。。

今天，你给自己创造了怎样的世界？

当然，你的世界不能少了上帝的参与，因为他才是真正的世界主宰，还有谁比他了解世界？

2011-11-23T07:13:00.001+08:00

theres just some veins got slightly insane inside me.
theres time to remind myself, not to feel the world, not to see the world, not to hold the world.
back to the path!

"and now, dear children, continue in Him, so that when He appears we be confident and unshamed before Him at His coming." -- 1 John 2:28

roller coaster

2011-11-21T22:58:00.001+08:00

let me tel you what girls are.
usually they won't stick with the status quo like they always do.
the first second they can make up their mind to choose A and right after that sec they will just give up on that and go to the other B.

huh,my oh my monday night.
just spent time touching up my blackie white piano once i get back from work.
on choreographing a mash up songs that pops up in my mind last night.
immediately i searched for the lyrics and wrote it down.
and yah after a 15minutes i think i get all my chords done and something tickle little creative one on the intro and textures.
and here comes i force myself on the breakthrough to sing with my mouth and playing music with my own hands.
im not good on that.obviously.
i can hardly get myself into attention on both.can't balance it.
and see again,after i recorded down my draft clip.
i see this problem again.after a few times of repeating.
at first i was quite surprise with what it came our from my fingers,u know.
i thought that was not my playing.i think my lessons give me some ideas!thats great i think.
and i off to my lesson(piano lesson).

during the lesson my teacher just told me i am much better than the first time she met me.
erm..this is the 4th lesson, and she said i was just not happy with what i have previously.
and so i messed up myself.i just need a little bit of encouragement and affirmation to make myself into some sort of confident level, and i will be there!
and shes just keep on leading me on the firmness of the rhythm thingy.
hey,you won't notice you have improved until somebody told you that.(ummm,i mean me)
when i digested her comments and think back, thats true!
oh great, im much more sensitive with what i have now.=)

well,happy mood takes back from the lessons but just until then.
i came back to my recording again.I HAD THE WRONG KEY for my singing!
the pitch are so not right.i can't handle it well.
phew~thats my problem on focusing too much on just my music part.
see,i can't even realize it while im singing that time.duh!
feels like a water bomb throw on my face.
right now,i am not sure i can play like what i played today.
oh gosh,i need a FLUSHHHHH!!!

what a night.this are..you know..girl things!

2011-11-20T19:44:00.001+08:00

like you know,im not that kind of oustanding person.

im not smart,i just figure out things.

im not that talented, i just keep on doing what i like.

im not pretty, i just tried up to be different.

im not perfect, i just someone who is unique and odd in this world.

huh,how to say?

i blew my day with an un-church sunday.

nah,not purposely,but yah,family..and it ends up this.

well, til now i should know, i shouldn't get myself into this swamp.

self developement!gosh i nearly forgotten this is my homework!

hey,writing down all these does help!(not crapping)

sometimes i really just find myself clear with something "inside" me.*mystery!*

tick-tock!i've left more than a month here.looking back what i've done.

oh no!i need a rush!

chasing out my goals before i back to kampar land!

and there, something busted up my mind today.

"When you come to a cross road, always choose the path that will never get you a 'what if...?' "

p/s: my little singing bees are buzzing up! wokey, i'll just enlight my night!

喜乐

2011-11-18T22:48:00.001+08:00

你创造了万物，万物是因你的喜乐而存活和被造。--启示录 4：11

因你的恩典，我，微笑。

因你的慈爱，我，微笑。

因你的怜悯，我，微笑。

因你的眷顾，我，微笑。

因你的荣耀，我，微笑！

我们活着，是要使神喜乐。

因着他的喜乐，我们，喜乐！

因着我们的喜乐，他，喜乐！

p/s:有没有发笑“喜”这个字很像一个笑脸？“口”总要张大才是喜乐哦！ XD

初恋这小事！

2011-11-17T21:33:00.001+08:00

i saw someone posted this on fb last night.
and i just clicked it i thought it was just another movie trailer.
after 5minutes only i realized it is the full complete movie.lol.*dumb*
curiousness made me continue to watch it.(while doing other things.haha)
erm..alright.just wanted to highlight that..it gave me another old school day's review.
TAN SHI YING..i thought of out "love-ship"!hahas..
erm..no tearing all the way round.
just eyes "sap sap" abit la..ahaha~ X)
hmm..was wondering is this movie meaningful?whats the value it brings to me?
nothing other than the reminders of the memories lo.
i think that,friendship is something that cannot be replaced.
no matter where u are,when you'll be, we needs(i need!) somebody there.
to share,and to care.whatever!just like the girls in the movie.
and about the love story,hmm..first love.yeh..a heart broke one.
someone stole my heart,my days and my soul, too i was.
never stop expressing your love to anyone i think!
thats not something bad for you to care about somebody and showing love.
just don't waste time for hiding yourself and miss something/someone meant to you.
lol.conclusion.a "not bad" movie la.watch, if you have time.hahas

p/s: pray for my brother, hes suspected denggi.thank God that at least hes able to back here(just).
and praise God for His protection on my grandpa,grandma and loves one.
hmm..love before its too late!

我的三千烦恼丝！

2011-11-16T23:21:00.001+08:00

不知不觉，我及肩的发丝终于长长了！
顿时觉得它们越来越重了，有点难照顾咯。。
剪掉烦恼丝，烦恼真的会变少吗？
让我好好的分析分析，再判断判断。。

懒惰没打理的时候

早上睡醒乱翘的时候

洗头后湿答答的时候

吹干打理过的时候

你看看你看看，是有点丑啦，但我还真舍不得。（长情？）
有点啦，毕竟他们好不容易长长了勒~
难做决定，身边的人不听劝我别剪。。更让我七上八下！
你说啦？你说啦？yo~ >.<

pure heart

2011-11-15T18:37:00.001+08:00

suddenly this song appeared in my mind.
and i just youtube it and sing it along.
after a buffer of the day, im so much calm with awakening mind,i guess.
a very intensive word came into my mind after the singing.
--"Pure heart"--
yes,i guess what i need is a pure heart.
the happenings just get myself into the emotional wave.
now,take a deep breathe, i see His grace.
open my palm and feeling the brezee air.
no,not tight fist.
yea, i should've open my heart and see things clearer.
and now, i came to a calm river, with crystal clear water.
peace, i have it with me.
smile and look up the above sky! (:

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.--Matthew 5:8

p/s:thinking to chop off my hair, but today the hair styler just ask me not to, just change another style.hmm..?should of should not? (~o~)
.

给我个理由，哭

2011-11-14T20:20:00.001+08:00

刚下班回家，在雨声沙沙，雷声隆隆的状况下。
“朴”的一声倒下床就睡着了。
不知道睡了多久，突然被震雷响吓醒了。
醒来后有种想哭的感觉，胸前闷闷的。
我已记不住下脑袋瓜儿又做了什么梦。。？
只依稀记得，好像。。有梦到同一个人。
天啊，这是我每次最不想发生的事。
那种感觉，让我对自己很陌生。
明明想摆脱这一切，这一个人。
可是这梦不是我能控制得了的事。。我生恨了.
恨我控制不住自己的情绪。。
牧者说，那是因为我真的付出了，完全坦然的付出了，才会陷得那么深。
是真的吗？我宁可自己是无情的，冷血的，潇洒的，善忘的。。
至少我还知道自己的思绪是自由的。不由得我控制不住。
为什么，我已经爬上来了，却感觉在半空中`？
为什么，我主动靠近这伤害了，但却不能摆脱？
常说到，人的心魔是往往比魔鬼还可怕。
现在，我根本不知道这心到底住着什么？
这心魔真的很可怕。。
是啊，我累了。
累得不想再管了。不想面对，不想后退。
先让我喘口气吧，待调整好情绪之后，我一定要好好正视这个阴影！完全的！

于此停笔，带回还得去上钢琴课。
还真讨厌大雨天自己驾车出去的感觉。。
嗯，加油！

whats better than these?

2011-11-12T22:27:00.001+08:00

i've had a superb week.busy yet fruitful!

such a long time i dun have the feelings like this since i left kampar land.
work + serve + play comes together!its like..wuuhoo!~

hahas..almost every night i have activities.but of course not hang out like aimless la.
u know,my time now is really so so so limited.
i spent one third of my day for sleeping(such a waste huh),one third to work(no choice),and left one third for myself only(life still goes on, spontaneous is my style! )LOL.

wokey,and i've great moments with my shi ying dear and JALEN TAN(scared u din see this.=p)
thanks for peuposely fetch me after work to fulfil one of my small dream!hahas..
what is dat?come, i show you~

this is it! i want Haagen dazs for my 19th bday.but it end up this.ahaha..not bad!

see,eat til so full.hahas.

and lately my working life quite colorful also.lol

other than the figure, i have "outings" with the boss.

lol.this week,i've been accompanied her to the fish market to buy fish, accompany her to attend malay wedding.

its during the working hour you know!

hahas..i see a lot of things la.

and i appreciate that~!though thats weird.lol

and we got two honeymoon day!boss was outstation for two days!=p

overall,had fun in the small spaces.ekekeke!all of the girls very naughty one..

i have a lot to tell about my boss.but mayb next time.this is for my pictures stories!hahas

what she bought us from her outstation.

first time attending malay's wedd.

they are rose lover.

the souvenir are no longer boiled eggs.lol.

and never the less,church time!tis week i have an officially serving time.with pre-inform and practices.

thank God for that opportunity!and this week is the birthday celebration time.

that was wonderful to have fun with so many kids!time to ask some of them to join youth i think.

meriah sangat!lol

erm..chak! =p

but its not Christmas yet!

so after all,im happy!

yes,none other word to describe but im just happy with my days!

love~good night! ^^

rise of hope

2011-11-11T22:03:00.001+08:00

早晨的曙光,即为破晓的阳光。
象征着美好与希望。
今天,虽然是有点小…"以莫",既使再不如意,我仍然带着胜利在望,革命的曙光!
深深的坚信,那位为世界创造曙光的,会永远是我的希望!
明天会更亮!人们,珍惜你的一计之晨!

Hope is the dream of a soul awake.but when you say a situation or a person is hopeless,you're spamming the door in the face of God.

Indeed,"blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob,whose hope is in the Lord his God."--Psalm 146:5

P/s:今晚的月亮也特圆!

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困惑

2011-11-10T07:05:00.000+08:00

很多时候，勇气需要配合冲动，事情才会成真。
现在的我，少了些冲动，就像破了洞的热气球，不再向上伸。
是害怕再度的伤害？
阿~！真的很想摆脱！现在！马上！
不想让这一切阻扰我。

傻傻的，我不知道干嘛一大清早会有这种感觉！
好吧！今天我要加油！
早安天父！早安星期四！;)

day off !

2011-11-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

for quite a long time,shopaholic has slowly forgot about her "job".lol.no longer then.
one day off is so precious to me.routine life is so frustrating.(i should've studied PR >.<)

ok,i spent my time with the girls~shopping spreeeeeeeeeee!!(not that crazy actually )
lots of stuff to get but with limited budget.lol
i don't know is it my problem.don't like to shop the shops that i used to.
i buy NOTHING at prangin mall while others get the most there.=.=
but i think its good also la..haha.just that i need clothes for CNY!!
few months din buy clothes dy.so proud of myself! X)
come,do this with me.. X)

follow me,she tells stories. =p

stuff i bought.

when is my mext day off?!

另种悟

2011-11-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

放弃该放弃的是无奈,
放弃不该放弃的是无能;
不放弃该放弃的是无知，
不放弃不该放弃的是执着。

the right way leads you a thousand miles.

a good day start from the sweetest smile. X)

p/s: i love this expression so much recently. " X) "

what do you think? =p

遇 | 见

2011-11-07T08:36:00.001+08:00

每一次教会领袖都劝我面对，我都会说"遇见了再说"
这次，还真的遇见了。
而且，我觉得，是冥冥中的安排，我必须面对“伤害”。

其实，这道伤口，一直无视它的存在。。。
但神是信实的，他永远知道我在想什么。
这次，我选择了顺服。
不只是顺服，而是设法让自己走出阴影。

很多时候，这个烙印，不断的捆绑我的情绪。
如果再不面对，我也只能永远呆在深渊里头。
在这么复杂的难过当中，我提起了勇气，踏出了第一步。
虽然，还没完全解脱，但我知道，我松了一口气，深深地……
我只要求一个简单而能抚平的答案。
一个健康而完美的关系。

领袖也是过问我：“你是否想过你们会在一起？”
我……老实说，我回答不了这个问题。
因为，现在的我，完全脱离了那段关系，连朋友的身份也不是。
我，不会想太远。只想走出这个圈圈。；）

有一天，我可以很自然色面对这伤疤的时候，我知道，我又不一样了！
重新迎接阳光的到来！
真诚地面对！Hello Sunshine! ^^

2011-11-02T22:07:00.001+08:00

如果必须压抑对一个人的关心,是逃避。
如果在没肯定的事实否定,是封闭。
如果掩盖心中的感动,是掩饰。
如果拒绝爱人的心,是懦弱。

那我,应该在大逃亡中! X)

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汪洋的旅程

2011-11-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

最近身边的一些事，让我对于“伴侣”有了另一番见解。
许多人认为，找到了另一半，就等同于在往往中找到了一块浮木--准备上岸。
但是对我而言，在汪洋中我不会期待“浮木”的出现。
不是我比别人坚强，而是，浮木的定义，是什么？

当游者游累了，刚好抓住了一块浮木，这是多么庆幸的事？
但对于“浮木”，是何等的承重？

没错！我是个酷酷的女生！

那游者只会把自己的负担重量加添在浮木身上，继而随波逐流，等待归岸的一天。
一段关系（不只是男女关系），不是在困难的时候寻求一份依赖。
也不是，希望任何一方能在自己需要的时候，填补一些不足或空洞。
这样的关系，有一天，浮木支撑不下去，有着相互往下沉，永远都上不了岸。

郑重的声明：对不起，我不愿充当“浮木”，更不追寻浮木。
我不是一个“你”可以呼之则来，挥之即去的傀儡。
我也没有闲下来的时间陪你“瞎耗“。
我更不是让你填补时间空洞或”找碴“的对象。
我想你找错人了！

我宁可，在汪洋中有的是一个可以同进退的伴侣。
一个和我朝着同一个方向目标的，一个在游向岸时能够分享的，一个在大风浪里能够互相扶持的。
浮木不是我的目标，目标是对岸，而伴侣，是遇着了，再说。
一个人游泳也没什么大不了。
只是同游的，多个人分享，多个人照应。

我也许不会是个好的游者（或不会游泳！=p)
但至少我有运动健将该有的态度！
向浮木，say NO! ^^v

暖心 cover

2011-10-30T08:39:00.000+08:00

甜甜的歌，甜甜的诠释。
利用这首歌，学习如何唱出“笑容”。
选择这歌，只因为歌词简单带出温暖的甜蜜，比较容易进入意境。
歌里也需要真假音转换技巧。

首先，我练习了笑着唱歌，这可不简单！
牙套累人~嘴唇时常来不及唱，咬字受影响！

第二，这是一次性的录音。
不会练习，不会录第二次。
目的是带出，最原始最自然的感觉。
当然它不会那么完美，但我喜欢自然的感觉。

我的确很久没做酱的事（录歌）了。嘻！
在你听的当儿，希望你也会感受到那份暖心。
任何评语，欢迎之至！

p/s: 我相信，每个梦想的背后，都有它坚持的理由！

唯_ 爱

2011-10-29T17:34:00.001+08:00

人的爱可以是那么伟大，也可以是那么的卑贱。
我不得不那么形容，卑微，而奸贱。
那种可怕，是连魔鬼都不如。
那种无情，是造成了多少的伤痛？
有些人，不懂爱，就随便爱。
有些人，很想爱，却不能爱。
有些人，爱不到，而学会爱自己多一点。
有些人，明明很爱，还只能把爱藏起来。
有些人，很难爱，因为他们爱自己胜过一切。
有些人…………

原来的简单，现在变得复杂。
最简单的爱，从何时起变质了？
你知不知道，原来有一种爱，可以穿越时空，可以是零交流？
你知不知道，原来有一种爱，可以超越想象，可以是未曾看见，却坚定不渝？

这样的爱，有谁能抗拒？有谁能抵挡？

那，才是真正的_ 爱！

我是傻大姐？

2011-10-28T21:21:00.002+08:00

近来的我，不知道是开始懵懂，还是得了短暂失忆症？

变得非常的善忘，时常丢三落四，忘东忘西，糊里糊涂，闹出不少笑话来。

“称赞”我是傻大姐的人也越来越多。。

不知道是好是坏勒？

我吼，时常记不住自己在昨天做了什么？吃了什么？穿了什么？

在压力下更时常变本加厉。。

有时候要走下楼装水，突然想不起自己为何事而走下来。。

有时候驾车，忘了自己要去哪里。。

试过把洗脸霜当牙膏拿来刷牙。。

试过把头发洗两遍。。

常常忘记带东西出门。。

我看啊，最常忘记带脑袋出门咯。。

最厉害的就是上个学期读过的课程，我也可以眨眼就忘，我说，别人可是过目不忘！=.=

那些在别人面前有过的糗事，哇塞！好像时常发生。

讲话讲一半，往往忘记自己讲到哪里。。

说到发问问题，很多人称我为“问题少女”，该问不该问的，都问！=p

时常被骗被闹，乃家常便饭咯~

总之，不懂是近半年还是近一，两年我IQ降低，记忆力衰退，提早老年痴呆？

“我觉得你很傻大姐咯。。”

“你看你，这样可爱，谁都想欺负你咯。。”

这种“可爱”，我有点担心咯。。

我好像越来越严重~

最近的工作表现也是，算帐算错，打字也会打错。。

糟糕鸟~怎么办？我不要当傻大姐鸟~！

a thoughtful action

2011-10-27T20:15:00.004+08:00

"if someone appreciate you, this doesn't mean that you are special.
that's because of they are special."

someone told me this statement before.
and i think thats a very good one.
so i always keep myself to be reminded of this whenever i face discouragement.
because we always expect people to appreciate your work.
for me,it don't need to be an gift back or pay back.
at least they see it.just a simply action like word of affirmation will do.
you know, when you really love somebody, you will never know how much you gave.
and you will never care how much you receive back.
because the act of serving is a love language.

i am so much blessed with the people around me where we're all surrounded by the love.
like family, like brothers and sisters.
they're so special to me.
though we they are not perfect, but they always give the best.
thanks to my star one life group members.
they meant a lot to me.=)

appreciate mr.Ryan representing star one
to present me the gift of appreciation.lol

its chocolate from s'pore.thanks lot! ^^

get my boyfriend's jeans

2011-10-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

I want a boyfriend's jeans!
Umm,a boyfriend jeans......it don't have to get it from the boyfriend's wardrobe..
Boyfriend jeans are oversized jeans and trousers worn by women.
Made immensely popular by the Hollywood celebrities, this is a trend which seems to be going really strong for Spring 2011, precisely for the reason that it looks super comfortable, roomy and airy.
yeh im so off to it.

wearing too much of trousers and jeans to work.
seriously,i hate long pants a lot.
simply one and very intense reason: i don't have a long and slim legs.
and due to the family gene, =.= im with unique and "cacat" limbs.
okie, no complain! *shut up!*
lol..i can't change anything, so i wear to looks better.
boyfriend's jeans was not the newest trend.
but i think jeans is something it will never stay out of the sense of FASHION.

i prefer the ankle or knee length jeans.
loose and comfortable one will be perfect!
maybe i will get one boyfriend's jeans for myself in the coming cny without a boyfriend?
hahas.*blekk*

p/s: monday super blue, seeing lot of things through net surfing to get myself out from the bustle. oh it works! =)

the motto

2011-10-23T23:13:00.002+08:00

whenever i see them "evangelize" to others, my tears really cant tahan.
i dunno how to tell them what are they actually doing.
all the "miracles" that they saw..it poison their heart and they believe "it".
not only trusted it but also spread this "good news" to others.
inside me, i feel ashame.
not just because of what they do..
but also because of my faith.
i've never have the most of it.
they reminded me to strengthen my "part".
what they do,i should actually do greater!better!more and more!
in the good side is, they actually believe that something is above.
they can believe by seeing things happen with their own eyes.
thats good anyway.
someday, they will see the real miracles.
i dunno how, but i trusted they will.
right now on, boosting my faith once again.

what He feeds, i swallow;
what He leads, i follow.

what i need, recharge my motor.
night peeps.<3

祝福的祷告,代祷的祝福

2011-10-20T21:25:00.001+08:00

如果,有一天,你发现有一个人,在远方默默的为你祷告...

这一份祝福远远超过你能想象的。

同意?那就成为某个人的祝福吧!

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trainee auditor's routine

2011-10-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

.. supposed im having my marketing training at kayelle now.
but you know,500bucks of allowance cannot support me to survive in peejay.
well,this is call REALITY.
nevermind,lets see what God have for me.=)

i think i mentioned before im having my internship now.(3weeks days dy) did i?
lol.working at Y.T Choong & Co. accounting firm.(Institute Choong)
my job scope huh..hmm..all about the figures..1234567890...*faint*
am doing auditing account for a so called quite big company(due to pnc i cant tell anything.heh)
which the seniors said i will take more than a month to finish it.
oh well, now i can really understand why it take such long time.
their account is super super super complicated...uhhh..
i double confirmed,i dislike accounting a lots!
ok..lets talk about the people there.

one of my working look!

main charactor: the director a.k.a boss a.k.a accountant a.k.a high official officer
she is strict, she is fierce, she is good hearted, she is a nagger, she is unsecured, she is an millionaire, she is forgetful, she is lonely, she is a 64 aged lady, she is healthy and she is a christian.
everyday, she will ask to go into her room and "talk" to us.
"Lim, Lee, Kwan!!come~" (she call us like this.lol.i am ah "lee" inside the firm.)
some times "ah Lee" sometimes "ah Liew and Lee"...dats the second the work shall be put aside and immediately get into the room.
complain about colleagues/customers, complain about how people taking advantage of her, share stories about her niece/nephew, share what she did, share how she encourage people by her donations.
every day at least ONCE, sometimes even 3 or 4 times per day, and until today, i never miss it.lol
and sometimes she can talk about one case for few days even weeks.lol
she likes to scold, this is what so famous about her.lol
she is very choosy as well, in the firm she is like a queen.
"find this file!XXX company!" "photostat!" "tax file!"
somebody will straight away move her butts to do for her when she shouted her commands from her room.
everytime she goes out, immediately one of us must put her "reserved" sign board at the parking square.
and when she comes back, "horn!" in one second you will need to take back the sign.
lol.i have horn phobia now.not joking.
the time she scold, will be really rude and annoying.(never "give face" one.>.<)
but after she scolded you, right after the second she can treat you nicely again.(confused)
sometimes it will be a really frustrating old lady, but always, i try to understand her.
i see how thoughtful and loving.
she is unsecured because there is people taking advantage from her.
she just can talk to us because she has no people to talk to.
she scold and nag to show her ownership of the firm.(to get things done)
she is concern about her nieces and nephews even some of them never appreciate.
surely i have to admit sometimes i also feel annoyed by her, but yah, she is just an old lady that needs love and cares too.
there is always a reason for a people to form a characteristic, even you can't realize it.
i believe she has her success with her, but she lost something important in her life.
so now, in the meanwhile of adapting the environment here, can i color the firm and touch someone's heart as well? ^^

how does i looks like in the early morning?

1, 2, 3..of the permanent workers work in the firm.(one is her own sister)
they are quite nice lar.
willing to teach, can talk, can chat together.
and now im car pooling with one of the senior and Vanessa.
no choice, if drive their, the parking fees will cost about rm120 per month. the cheapest also rm80.
so we makes an ideal and go-green decision.hahas.
everyday i will drive to vanessa's house and wait for "ah Lai" to come.haha
and we back together too.
everyday, we are just longin to wait for two songs.(the clock on the wall will play christmas song every hour)
"glo~ria~in excelsis deo~glo~ria~....."--lunch time!
"jingle bell, jingle bell~~...."--call it a day!
hahas..facing all the figures, really stress, i sometimes can see the figures are dancing on the paper.seriously.lol

6 of the boxes i have of the invoices and documents that i will use up everyday.

anyway, i guess i learnt a lot there.
we somemore given the chance to attend a seminar at the income tax firm.all of us.lol(5 trainees and 3 workers)
not only the academic stuff, something i should really learn in life.
i should not complain that much for my own good.lol
still need to survive for more than two months.
wish me luck. =p

gov. is not rich?
they are wasting the slides by printing each slide a page. =.=
and eveyone gets one of the copy.super wasted man.

we learnt e-filing all those income tax stuff.
given laptops for practical and also the cert! =)

a good morning.|an easy tuesday.|a simple message.

2011-10-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

i remembered i posed like this years ago.
but i guess different eyes message.heh

i heard this song while driving to work this morning.

the song that had been forgotten for a while.lol.

it was a hit song at that time.

and this version makes me feel different.

i never like this song before.because i thought it was a bit funny with the "mouse and the rice".hahas

but what i get from this song is..love don't need to be complicated,just like the lyrics said.

it is just so simple as the mouse wanted the favorite rice.

but whats really reminds me is, life can be simple,too.

once you have your goal..just find the way and..go!

micky and minnie, are you catching your rice today? =)

The man without a purpose is like a ship without a rudder - waif, a nothing, a no man. Have a purpose in life, and, having it, throw such strength of mind and muscle into your work as God has given you.--Thomas Carlyle

love letter for someone who shared more than half of my life

2011-10-17T22:16:00.004+08:00

Someone SPECIAL,

thanks for being "somewhere" for me along the journey.
thanks for being that supportive whenever i needed.
thanks for accepting me as who i am from the beginning until now.
though we're not together.
though we meet up just for twice a year.
though we don't hang out likewise.
i know, u know, we know each other!

like the time you listen when i cry to you on phone.
like the way you tried to calm me down with words that really can cool me (even word of God)
like the way you doing silly things.(alrigh,with me.lol)
like the way u purposely come back to "see" me.hahas
okies,bla bla bla..12years,its more than i can say~*chak!!*

you know what?
call me when you need me.
visit me when you miss me.
viber me when you wanted to share with me.
whatsapp me when you wanna update me.
line me when you...umm..it don't need any reason!hahas.
the expiry date is : 1999 - infinity!
Tan Shi Ying.uhh..just thanks for everything.(included the cries.lol)
love ya!<3

yours dearie,
Jxin

2011-10-16T18:21:00.001+08:00

“人总是要在遭受巨变的时候，才能真正改变生活模式，态度，方式。
而有些事情，就是要发生，来给自己，还有关系带来考验。”

……消化，思考中~

周末记--杂

2011-10-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

杂乱的心情，多种的感触，全在短短的一个周末，我再一次来到了人生十字街头。
话说，今天下班，难得与“亲爱的”相约出游，不料误点打乱的我的行程，心情也好跟着翻了个跟斗！
重点：教会后记
青少年团聚会过后，挣扎的抉择是否应该留下听道（旧约研经特会）。
选择一：走人，跟着原来的计划去“亲爱的”家继续聊天叙旧。
选择二：哪都不去，回家做乖女儿。
选择三：留下，听道，但会是夜归女。

事实上，这个特会的标题的确吸引了我。（想进一步多了解旧约）
最后决定：留下！
这，有什么好复杂？有什么好烦恼？
当我想尽办法出席教会聚会，每一次我做到了，我都很感恩。
出席聚会对我来说，已经使每个星期一定要做的事。
或许我应该说，不只是个习惯，更是一种需要！

好了，留下了，电话开始来了。（家里打来）
我的心完全的不安。（想着继续留下还是回家？）
那时，牧师正讲着“智慧的文学”。（就像在上华文课，有趣的华文课！）
不想走，但其实有很想走。扰乱的思绪，不断重复又重复。
“为什么去个教会要这么难？”
“为什么别人可以这么舒服坐在这里听道？”
“为什么有些人有自由来教会却从不珍惜？”
满脑子的埋怨~哀！

试着平定自己，开始分析。
既然我做了选择要留下，我必须有所得着才值得！
人坐在这里，心想这家里，何谓？
开始专心听道！

在一个小时半里面，印象最深刻的是“家的传承”。
传承，在华人的传统里面，包含了深刻的意义。
“三岁定八十！”
我深深地相信，在一个小孩还是三岁的时候，你在他身上种下的种子，是会生根的！
试想我在三岁的时候都在做什么？
我家人有像牧师教导孩子“做人的道理”？
其实我不知道我在三岁这无知的年龄里做了什么。
直到牧师提起了主日学！阿~对阿！我有去勒~
印象还蛮深刻，种种做过的事的片断浮现！
真的，如果不是妈妈送我去主日学，也许我不会有今天。
记得那天妈在责备我的时候也说了这句话--"我最错就是以前让你去教会！”
我何等的感恩，何等的感谢，那小时候被种下的种子！

……就这样，我的小脑袋瓜儿在整个特会中，装下了不少东西！
有点遗憾没能听完结尾，带着有点低落的心情开车回去。
整个驾驶的当儿，我真想一路的车道都空去，让我踏油狂飙！
好吧，败给了理智。关了收音机，打开手机的诗歌来听。
平静，冷静。

就酱，杂杂的一天，让我写下了这杂杂的短篇。
看不明白？只好请你自己找重点.=p
曾经有个姐妹告诉我，当有点迷失的时候，尝试写下自己的心情，会看得更清楚！
现在果然心情平复了许多，因为看到，今天的祝福远远胜过我所有的挫折！
浅浅的，在脸上挂上一抹微笑！ =)

p/s: 刚收到一位“小”姐妹的信息，小小的问候关心，足以让我感动得掉泪。
对我来说，这不只窝心，还很惊喜！
告诉你，神真的回应祷告！还没回应？只是时候未到！=) 晚安~

哭

2011-10-13T21:36:00.003+08:00

刚把电脑里的照片翻看一遍，原来他们已存了几乎28GB。嘻！
惊觉自己似乎变得蛮多的。。多了份成熟？
我倒觉得是多了担待，多了思考，多了。。。重量！哈哈~
每一个照片的表情，唤起了断断回忆~大约也只有两三张哭着的照片。。（珍藏！不会拿出来吓人！）
突然觉得，哭，真的那么不值得纪念吗？

天真小花蕾?

十八姑娘，一朵花？

现在两朵了？

本人我，好哭者也~
开心哭，感动哭，生气哭，难过哭，疼痛哭，思念哭，离别哭，庆祝也哭！
生命中，似乎也离不开哭嘛！
哭笑无常，“它们”的存在，是你生命的激长素，都使你成长！

想想，本人我真的很害怕在“别人”面前掉眼泪。
但我的眼泪，有时候真的不听使唤，害我“丢人现眼”。
恍然大悟，也没怎么样嘛~不过是真情流露，做回自己罢了！^^
虽然，我不会如何哭得“漂亮”，不失大雅。
我只会哭得爽快，哭得甘愿~
起码，那时我释放的解脱！
甚至如果有一段时间我没哭，会觉得自己压抑太多，很想哭。。（不知是不是荷尔蒙失调=p)
就会开始叫身边的朋友来“激发”我哭。哈哈~听起来很傻吧？是有点~
但我就是我啦，喜欢自然不做作！=)
也许，可以开始练习在我的相簿里，留下“难过”的表情。
当下一次我“旧簿重游”的时候，“它们"可以成为见证！

探热器显示--发烧中~

P/S：成绩出炉了！这次有小进步！非常感恩！不忘我当时的挣扎，做出了对的选择！^^
剩下最后一学期的考试，奋力加油！全速前进！继续冲刺！
还有还有，小姐我“小病”初愈！上班一个星期多，在两天前不慎发高烧！失声！
现在高烧退了，舒服了！迎接美好的另一天鲁~*爱心爱心！发光发光！*

when im ME

2011-10-11T21:29:00.001+08:00

Great things come from a grateful heart.

Imma grow like a MONSTER!! (spiritually ;p)

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cry out to Him

2011-10-10T19:34:00.000+08:00

难过的时候，你懂。
灰心的时候，你懂。
逞强的时候，你懂。
我所有的一举一动，你都懂。

所有的心情，所有的念头，你一一看守。
在我无助的时候，在我泄气的时候，
在我寂寞的时候，在我还没出生的时候。。

现在的我，心里的澎湃悸动，多么的感动你赐下的那一份爱。
我的一生，全然交托。
因我知你必不唾弃我，抛下我独自流泪面对忧伤。
不管在这世上所经历过的伤害有多大，
我只想说：阿爸，我愿意降服。
重新在你身上，找回力量。
重新回到，以你为中心的轨道上。

让我的生命，成为这首歌的异象。

2011-10-09T05:16:00.001+08:00

失眠。我想离开。T.T
噩梦连连了几个晚上，今晚更是发了无数个噩梦。。。
一时梦见工作上的问题。。
一事梦见同一个人。。。
我真的快发疯了。
现在的我，不想面对，只想离开。

独自面对恐惧的晚上，真的很难熬。
冷~

2011-10-07T19:17:00.000+08:00

最近在上班下班开车时听到的新歌。
觉得满好听的~推荐！
在这里，我把一下的歌献歌我爱的人们。
每首歌里所包含的含义，都充分表达我的感受。
读者，如果你觉得你是我的爱人，就在听歌选歌后，请自行对号入座！XD
入场免费！谢谢！

隐语：怀念

隐语：真实

隐语：爱在心中

new stage

2011-10-06T22:51:00.001+08:00

well, heres updates of my days.

started after my finals. packing and cleaning up the hostel.

i've left where i was currently staying at -- 1345.

moved back to home town for the interns.

not only packing up those stuff but also my own emotions.(its been 3 years sleep in this room)

lots of memories here.

people, things, even pictures taken.lol.lots!

last day at Kampar

emptied.

stuff.

my stuff took me 3 days to pack and boxed up.lol

n of course dad came up to pick them up home.

my xiao bai surely not containing that much.

alright lets forward to the home part.lol.

erm..went through a quite busy week.

unpacked my stuff for bout 3 days?yet,still have boxes in my room now.=p

(no space dy.hahas)

then went to find my keyboard class, meeting with Ms.Choong(interns firm's lady boss), meeting friends before get into busy...(time was really fully utilized)

i have no holidays la for sure.

n of course, not missing the church time.

i pray and pray so that i can able to attend church.

but i can see people who are in the comfort zone, they wont appreciate these opportunity.

anyway, thats not in point of my story.lol

i appreciated the chances being at church.

start to learn to have my self-development.

growing up without the care under my shepherd and other's forces.but me alone need to spur oneself and giving urge on myself.

time is ticking.and days are limited.

3months home, during these time it might be lot of unforeseen possibilities.=)

in order to use my imagination to dream, i'd rather take out the courage to fight for it.

ok, back to the topic.hahas.

umm, was pretty blessed with the short teaching during the youth service.

and i was given chance to share testimony for the first time i guess!

aunt isabel cued me for that.lol.kinda shock.

but am glad for that.

yah and sunday service i just got the chance to attend the last part of preaching and altar call time.

P.Barney was the preacher of the day.

here, lil thing to share.

during the altar call, pastor asked us to grab one person just to offer prayer to them.

without any doubts, i have a feelings to pray for an old lady sitting a row behind me.

i din't know her and i am not sure whether i see her before or not.lol

and right at the second, one of the sister--Ai Poh wanted to offer prayer to me.

i was really paiseh to reject but at last i did.=p

haha..i just called her to pray to the old lady too.then she also grab another old lady.

haha.so..each of us take one of the old lady and started to talk with them.

"do you have any prayer needs?" i asked.

and she said her arms and throat are aching.

so i say "okie" and "lets close eyes and pray"

lol.cant believe i did that.hahas

i was like pray pray pray until everybody stopped only i stop..lol

like not yet reach the quota.=p

and the old lady was very happy.when she said thank you to me right after,

i was like so touched.i dunno what is that but i know i was touched.=)

and the auntie suddenly ask me "what is on your teeth?"

hahas..it is my braces!

"oh!its nice!" lol.hahas..shes cute! =p

and thats what i've learnt and received at the first week home.praise God!

tee-hee!

and after the service, the youths are required to stay back for the x'mas program preparation.

and i was just recruited in.lol

gonna be my first time serving in FGA.huh~finally.=p

hope i can help up la anyway.

seeing the youngster giving their best and take time to practice, it was so warm inside!

everyone of them are shining!so charming~hope to be one of them!hahas..i mean the cute kids!

how great they can start to serve at their age.

duh..its ok.focus on what is going to be!hahas.

aunt Isabel teaching tambourine.

"Joseph" in the scene.

"Mary" in the scene.lol

Sharon was teaching kid to act as shepherds and sheeps.

studying the scripts.

ini budak sangat senang.nothing to do.like his laughter at
that place anyway.lol

lol.Rosalind was so frustrated with catching the chords.
i manage to helped her up at last!hahas

oh well im just so off to dessert!

okies.talking about my interns.started from 3rd of Oct.
ohlala~its gonna be a long 3months i think.
lol.leave the rest of the stories to this weekend i think.
gonna do my devotional and off to bed!
night peeps!*love!*

stay tuned

2011-10-05T21:54:00.001+08:00

3rd day after work!
Bit tired of writing.heh.
Stay tuned for more updates!lol.
Xoxoxoxo..

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2011-10-02T22:16:00.001+08:00

话说，回来已经快一个礼拜了。

过得怎么样？

哈哈~满多故事的叻！

但今天体力消耗了~明天再说？

明天会是我心迎接新挑战的第一天！

兴奋，紧张，开心，期待，害怕，担心...样样有！

现在呢，早起的代价--早睡！

晚安~ ;)

sweets

2011-10-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

I wish there is another fairy tale waiting for me in the other side! ;)

soul surfer

2011-09-29T20:08:00.001+08:00

just watched a movie named "soul surfer"!
its a inspiration true story of a female surfer, Bethany Hamilton.
the story line is very interesting which started with how the teen surfer carry her dream.
until she lost her arm in a shark attack.
how she find back her courage and faith, and how she continue to use the strength to shine again.

honestly,at first i din't pay high expectation in this movie.
i thought it would be quite boring.
but no!it did inspired me!
a SOUL surfer.
reminds me,a strong "surfer",not only depends on how well in your presenting skill.
but its your inner-self.how strong am i?
can i handle myself even if i lost my arm?
am i going to live with my faith?

Bethany the real person vs the "Bethany" in the movie

it throws out a lot of question to myself.
compare to me current situation,its even times of suffering and challenging.
and what i should really hold back?
"Stick to the foundation of FAITH!!"
what builds back a person in whole?the faith.
what brings hope again?the faith.
i can neither live nor survive without faith.

i cried with the plot and flow throughout the movie.
deeply inside admire the strong faith she has!
it really encouraged me a lot!
am strongly recommending you my friend to watch it.
then ponder again with your own life.
this movie worth your time!you'll find excitement,encouragement,inspiration,courage,faith.......

check it out!!

p/s: you can find it on pps too, named 灵魂冲浪

照片与人生

2011-09-27T15:40:00.001+08:00

为什么我喜欢拍照？

因为，我相信，在每一个笑容的背后，都存在着一个故事。
每一个照片里的主角，再用他们的眼神，笑容在说故事！
笑着的脸庞，记录了欢愉的时刻，记录了难忘的回忆。
人生里，有太多太多的回忆值得我们去回忆，
也有太多太多的是足以让我们忘记这些故事的意义。
哪一天，你不经意地看着照片的时候，想起生命里的某一个故事。。
这，是我常做的事。
不代表着我放不下过去，而是用一个思考的角度，去看待这一个人生。
每一个故事的背后，都有一个结局。
如何利用上一个结局，来策划你下一个故事的结局？
你人生的故事，有你亲自来编辑！

多留些照片儿，别让生命留白！;)

2011-09-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

its not about how rich you are;
its about how much u gave.

its not about how great you are;
its about how much you received.

its not about how far you go;
its about how long you've deal with.

its not about how big you are;

its about how much you have.

its not about physical age;
its about spiritual maturity.

its not about how much u bear;
its about how much you grow.

its not about how tough it is;
its about how you perceive.

its not about me;
its about HIM in me.

Jxin | 21.9.11

angry bird life

2011-09-13T22:54:00.002+08:00

life is like angry bird: you always need to aim before you "shoot"!

life is like angry bird: you are given chances to score!

life is like angry bird: you can have the "restart" button to run your game!

life is like angry bird: theres enemies piggy to attack before you can enter the next level!

life is like angry bird: you can't predict where you'll reach the next!

life is like angry bird: theres failure and teasing noises made, but don't forget there are hurrays and cheers over your success!

live tough!live an angry bird life! ^^

夜市风光

2011-08-29T22:01:00.003+08:00

“在一个~~风和日丽~~ 无所事事的早晨晚上，我突然心血来潮，向妈妈提议去夜市，餐后，梳洗完毕，妈妈便带着我和弟弟出发到后郎夜市场区。”--老掉牙的开场白·=p

是啊，阔别了一段时间的夜市。。依然兴旺。
同样的摊子，同样的小贩，摆卖者同样的物品。。
这夜市的扰扰嚷嚷，燃起了我心中的万分感慨。

夜市里的人来人往，我却找不着熟悉的伴儿。
夜里的灯光，也给不了我一点希望。
各式各样的食物，却又馋不了的欲望。
同样的卖场，心情它不再一样。

年少阿，我是那么的轻狂！
现在的我与以往那么的不一样！
个人各样的动作景象，过起了回忆阵阵回荡。
看似平静的我，在这个闹场，观察着，也感受着每一个浪波在心中荡漾。
正如“人面不知何出去,桃花依旧笑春风”。。。

“快乐的时光总是过得特别快！转眼间又到了回家的时候了。于是，我们收拾心情，带着~~浩浩荡荡~~ "打包"依依不舍的回家去。”--依然如旧的结尾。^^ 这就是我的夜市风光！

这一条窄路

2011-08-28T14:04:00.002+08:00

从一开始，就知道背起十架的重任，不容易。
多年以来，经历了这么多，是时候更成长了。
想着为以后做准备，想这家人的救恩，我不得不面对，因为我是家中唯一被拣选的。
曾经难过的质问上帝，“为什么是我？”。。我不想这么辛苦。
但他让我明白了，我是幸运的，我会经历更多，历练更多，在属灵里，我是这家的带领。

终于，我踏出了第一步。
眼泪。。流了许多。
在父母的心中，我成了悖逆的孩子。
当我第一次告诉她我正去着教会，被念了几句，但我还是抱着了喜乐的心，走了出去。
很感恩，以为他们终于放宽了心，开始对我了解。
果然，该面对的始终顶不住。。我还是硬着头皮，留着眼泪，被训了。
当他口出恶言的时候，我的心真的很痛。
当他说我背叛家人是，我真的很激动。
当他说要赶我出门时，我真的很委屈`。
但我知道，这不是从他们而来的，是撒旦的言语攻击`！
面对着这一切，我不断地祷告。。
最后的决定，使放下我的心来，是这顺服他们，等他们冷静的时候，再让他们慢慢接受，是啊，我想让他们知道，我还是他们的女儿，我做的这个决定，不是一是冲动，不是背叛的动作，而是成熟的，是理智的，是一直为这家里不断地求告，寻找。。
难过的是，一切的一切，在他们的眼中我是自私的，我这决定是仓促的。
不是的，我会证明我是认真的，这个决定不是错的。

虽然种种的可能我都曾设想过，不过真正去面对的时候，我需要更多的力量，支持鼓励，聪明智慧，持之以恒。。
感谢神，Hope Kampar给的支持教导。。从来没有间断。
但回来太平的时候，感觉很像孤军作战。
想了很多，从前的就让它过去了，但关于现在，关于以后。。我是不是该继续留在FGA?
从来没去怨过任何人，也没有怨神，所被对待的伤害。
但我在乎的是，我在这个教会，我还能成长多少？
面对教会的小辈，我必须是比他们长进的，时常设法进入他们的世界。
面对教会的长辈，我还是格格不入，觉得很难被接受。
ＨＫ的弟兄姐妹不断地帮助我，甚至像来到太平来与我家人谈谈。我真的很被鼓励，也很感动。。
但在这里，很少得到过任何弟兄姐妹的精神支持，属灵的带领，主动的关心。
我试了，主动了，学习了。。到底要怎样才能更好？
如果我选择留下，我该要怎麽扛起家人与教会的压力，这两边都成了我的压力。

没关系，因为我祷告了。
我做了我该有的行动了，其余的，就靠神的安排了！
我不管了，神你就带领一切了！
刚强我，预备我，接下来的所有，都交给你了。

"if you love me,keep my commands."-- John 14:15
hang on!jia xin!

2011-07-28T16:01:00.002+08:00

“山无棱，天地合，才能与君绝。” -- 还珠格格

“花有麝，神之旨，方能与君和。” -- Jxin

找回

2011-07-21T21:42:00.003+08:00

丢失了1095，剩下的只有185。
在790里，我相信“无限“。
泪痕滑下的时候，坚强是我的榜样。
心思复杂的时候，神的话语是我的精神支柱。
丢不掉的，我会珍藏;
遗失掉的，我学会“找回“。

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be a brave good girl

2011-07-18T22:50:00.002+08:00

我给的爱，不是意外；

你的不理不睬，或是是种伤害；

但我学会放开，选择勇敢去爱！

因为，我不再是小女孩，期待爱的到来！

Bwahahahaha~！ ^^

p/s:simply feel so satisfied with these few sentences.XD

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the season

2011-07-17T23:00:00.001+08:00

Something i felt which i cannot just actually describe it.but seriously,she sings into my heart.and the lyrics spin over my emotion.this is the season to grow,indeed.what i require myself to learn,whenever i am in this emotional condition.NEVER LET YOURSELF FALL INTO THE TRAP. You may have your emotional,but do not let it take away your joy!
: ) *peace & love*

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return in order!

2011-06-27T13:18:00.000+08:00

hectic life has messed up my life order.
i think i've been forgotten what is the most important essential in my life.
after i realize i need to rearrange my time,once i again.i made a magical prayer.
i told him i wanna experience Him during the prayer meeting.
as usual,He answered.
i am touched again.
and He told him something: "In Order".
and theres two ways to make my life back in order.
1.priority
2.purpose
He wants me to reset my priority.yah,i admit i've lost my head in all those tasks and forgotten what is my prioruty.
and yet,the purpose driven life.checking in my purpose in every area.
my reminder:He is the core-life.
thank God for these words.
i write it all here is to keep myself in this reminder!
yesh!!!He never fails me! ^^

用生命歌唱~

2011-06-09T11:38:00.001+08:00

在我的身体里，住着千百万只虫虫~
他们都是会唱歌的虫。
每当音乐响起时，他们会随着音乐的旋律起舞，
使得我浑身不自在，发痒似的跟着摆动。
柔顺的音乐，会陶醉的微摆；
轻松的音乐，会跟着快乐的哼着；
强劲的音乐，手脚会像发了电的打起拍子；
遇到了熟悉的歌，更是不受约地唱出声来！
这些虫虫，应该是打从我还在母亲的肚子里就逐渐形成了。
爱唱歌，爱跳舞，更是爱音乐！
每当我不自觉地发出声来时，有时候还怪不好意思的！
不过，他们就是这么的不受控制！甚至还替歌手和声！
哇！他们的力量实在太强大了！
哈哈！
终于，在服侍的路途上，用上了这些虫虫！
不只会唱歌，会和声，弹钢琴，现在还多了个新的玩意儿！~他们竟竟然会打鼓！
稀奇吧？！
我希望，这些虫虫会长生不老，到我老来时，还会这么活泼，好唱，好动！
因为，我也像他们一样爱音乐！
我要用我的生命再来歌唱！

2011-06-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

几次，忽然有想哭的冲动。
但是，我选择了让自己抓住另一份感动。
我希望，我的未来不只是梦。
我要加油！=）

2011-05-31T23:10:00.001+08:00

after a blink of eyes,my semester break is over.

let me conclude my short honeymoon here.

i was really busy for finding interns job..

totally din get myself involve in any entertainment..lol..good also la..save money.

during the job interview.=)

but then,still got some highlights la..

i tell you huh..i never know my dad is such romantic.

28-5-2011 was my parent's 22th anniversary.

unfortunately,hes not home.went outstation dy.

then arh,this is so surprise me but not my mum,lol.

he asked me to go and buy chocolate for my mum,i was like.."har?call your daughter help you do such thing?"

lol..but at last u really go and buy it la..and decorate abit..but i told him i dunno what to write in the card,so he should own-self sms my mum those geli geli,ok la..so called romantic words.

lol.i curi curi place the pressie at mum's bed,after my mum saw it.

she very cool which is already in my expectation.

she came and ask me isit im the one who put it there.

lol..n she just replies "sampat.waste money"!!

lol..luckily!din buy a bouquet of rose.lagi teruk.=p

hahas..i think this is so fun la..help daddy to do romantic stuff.

i appreciate my family.hope their love can last forever la..(they really siao siao one =.=)

the chocs + rose

and chiang chiang!i have a new hair style!=p

my hair was straight for the 21 years d..

now..finally,its curl!lol

its in my plan to culr it and cut it short after a period la..but i bring forward the plan d.

lol..i duwan to straighten my hair continuously forever..

so i wanna try to cut short and see hows my original hair.

who knows,i super like my hair now!

its so messy until i felt its so stylish!lol..its totally what i want..=)

hope u feel good of it too!hahas..

thats all la for my end of sem break.lol

need to continue to go for interviews la..and start my FYP d..

God bless you and me!^^

我不是你想象那么勇敢

2011-05-30T20:59:00.003+08:00

first day of final year.i ad stress.
this time,the tears no more drop down silently,was crying lk a mad howl.
nobody to express my feelings,God i know i knew me,help me kay?
so much discouragement bumping towards my day.
not independent enough? i dun think the value of independent is being an island.
talk to me dear..
nowhere to express.dats y,im here tonight.

“让我放下武装，像个孩子一样”,我希望...

the unusual holidays

2011-05-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

its been another post exam..is currently in my very short and busy sem break.
and i am officially 21~

the feeling after turning into 21st,its like getting myself into more mature.
getting heavier on my shoulders with the responsibilities,thinking more about the future way.
its like..i am no more a 18years old girl,hoping someone to help up.
no.. independent!i need to push myself into another stage~=)
and this birthday i felt so different with the previous 20 birthdays..
i felt so blessed and God spoke to me.
He wants me to understand that not to see my future by my physical eyes.
because He is going to bless the people who love Him in the impossible way.
amen amen amen!=p
i am so grateful i grabbed the eternal love that never fails me!
and i had 5 birthday celebration this time!hahas
on 8th,HK suddenly had a small celebration for all the April and May babies.
then on the same day,my housemates celebrate for me after church.(small surprise la..but they failed to surprise me!=p i too smart d..haha)
then 10th,after my 4th paper,my dear J.A.S wants to celebrate with me.ah che cook for the first time!lol..really appreciate that..it was simple but memorable..because hes going to grad d..=(
then 11th,yong yong and sook kwen them celebrate with me..they bring me to a secret dine venue on that night.it was really touched that the 1st time,whole workers in the steakhouse(the band singers,waiter,waitress,and chef) come the our table and sing..lol..i dunno what they sing because i was just crying that time.
12th,my big day is ad over but my shepherd still wanna celebrate for me,i tot it was just a small celebration btw her and me,surprisingly she called out about 10ppl that night.lol..i was so touched they created me a wonderful time.so touching with the words and my fav dishes!
hehe..this year i had blown so many candles,and more than 10 bday wishes i've made!
it ard special enough though i din't get my dream 21st bday party~ ^^v

n yea,this short break.what i did?
i've been really a rush for the internship stuff.
searching job through wed,apply job,preparing documents,writing resume,consulting people..etc.
never-ending work..days is like school day without attending classes only.*phew*
anyhow,theres still some activities..
like celebrating grandpa's bday also..the family dinner..

my big wish is grandparents can get healthy..hope they're happy with their days..i know they love me a lots.
i love them too!will keep them in my prayer~ =]
besides,also got fellowship with the bro n sis lo..everytime i see them,surely i will learn something.
because everytime i can feel their different..i am thankful for that~ =)

my church look~=p

other than that,i also being the miss 'admad' fetching my brothers to tuition..lol
yah...big sister d now..lol..from a girl that dunno how to drive..n now..i fetching my brothers!lol..
hmm..entertainment?don't have lor..not even a movie..lol..
erm..got yumcha with parents lo..eat supper lo..hopefully i din get fat..
nothing d oh my holidays..lol.

family day look~^^

happy shaved!he got nice hair now..lol..Rm65 eh..expensive then my hair cut..@_@

oh got la..one and only date with yong to starbucks for discussing the interns..lol..
give myself a cup of coffee during the break.satisfy?lol..ok ok lor~=p

i am really so nervous and fear about something recently.

mostly for my future n next new sem.year 3 d!woosh~!final year..

i know i should have cope with it.but..stress?

i doubt to trust my Lord?

pray for me ya bro n sis.
love ya~ =)

11052011

2011-05-11T01:49:00.001+08:00

自问：“人生至此，意义何存？”

自答：“我只能说，神的旨意是美好的！”=）

道路-真理-生命

2011-05-06T22:55:00.002+08:00

another storm came.
the glass broke into pieces again.
as usual,He came and pick it up.
fixed it.
the picture above was the picture likely shown to me during the prayer.
i realized that,the road i walking,is the asphalt road.
it seems to be so rough,so dirty,a never-ending road.
but what i sight is the flowers and colors beside the road.
"I created the road for you.walk by faith.you'll see it."
not by my physical eyes.but by faith.
yes,that was like fantasy,thats why He is creative.
you cant imagine how wonderful the road it unless you continue to walk by faith.
fear-no-more!
i am not the slave for any worldly things.
i am the servant for you my Lord.
and i am thankful that was the asphalt road,instead of muds,or rocks.
the mercy Father,i will grow my faith.
~ Faith = Blessings ~

Your will,but not my will.

2011-04-26T11:07:00.003+08:00

Let Your will be done my Lord.

by faith, i will get good result!

by faith, i will find interns job!

by faith, i can maintain the relationship!

by faith, i will show great testimony!

by faith, hope will rise up!

by faith, Christ will conquer the world!

by faith, Jess.

2011-04-14T13:12:00.001+08:00

eeek..disappeared for a long time!

oops!im still busy with lots of stuff.lots of testimony to share but no time to really sit down here to type yet.=p

patient readers!i had renewed my playlist!great songs provided!enjoy!

2011-03-11T10:45:00.002+08:00

dream guy of mine.^^

2011-02-28T16:43:00.001+08:00

recently a best friend of mine asked me that what kind of characteristic(outlook) i've been dreaming for my partner.

so..here i'd like to make a conclusion.haha.

well,firsly..i wish he got a Zac Efron's face.=p

he got a very charming eyes..can you see that?can you see that?

its like a deep hole..dat you're hard to read his mind.mystery and blueish..*love!*

and next,i like Alan(xiao zhu)'s hair style.just simply feel that it is stylish and neat.

hmmmm~

next..owh!very importantly,the height of Godfery(gao yi xiang).

i don't like to see guy with moustache,but he is sexy with the moustache..lol..

looks very clean and "man"..

talking about sexy,recent singer Anthony has a very sexy and attractive voice..

if my dream guy can have the voice.....=p

and the music talents..like Lee Hom.

i think that when a guy have talents,its like he got a spot light shining to him.

last but not least,the body shape of Vanness Wu.

strong muscular arms..awww~

lol..but what i kinda like of him is his serving heart la..

i watched his testimony clip before..and it impressed me lots.

plus his gentleness in this drama..i feel like fall in love with him..ahaha..

sampat me..=p

leng chai + leng chai..haha

the small leng chai super cute la..

love him much much!

*cubit cubit*so geram larh..!

lol..actually all of these are just an illusion la..for the dream guy..

but for life partner..what i really need is a real man..lol

only God knows who i want..hehe..top secret!

not saying that outlook is not important la..but its just additional marks lo..=p

hopefully,i'll meet the right man someday and form a sweet family.

religion??

2011-02-24T01:36:00.001+08:00

there there there..something very interesting during my moral class.
its class about agama.
so..for the introduction.lecturer do ask some question.

1.apakah agama anda?
some of the answers: "buddha" "hindu"

2.megapa?
"kerana family saya pun buddha"
"tak tahu"
"family"

3.jika anda diberi perluang untuk memilih agama,apa agama akan anda pilih?
"buddha juga" "hindu lo"

4.magapa?
"errr...tak tahu"
"suka lo"
"family ma"
"sudah biasa"

all the above are the conversations between the lecturer and the students in my class.
i've found out something very common among the midst.
and this happened to most of the so called "religion" i think.
first of all,they just tend to "believe" because they are born to "believe".
because of their family's belief.not by their own.
and next,they dont even know what is all about their religion.
they just follow blindly.totally BLIND.
when lecturer asked about their knowing about their religion.some of them just answered "kurang pasti" "kurang jelas" "tak tahu"
they dun even know who the "god" is.and what is the value and history in it.
they just used to seek god when they are in need.

yes i agree with lecturer who said this is not their fault.
but the culture itself.they never think deeply and really explore and study their belief.
and this is so different with what we are really believing.

1.we believe in God.because He has created us,and He love us and gave the son,Jesus to crucified on the cross for us because of our sins.
2.we have a relationship with God.we seek for his word.we seek for the righteousness and follow the way,the commands.not just simply believing.
3.we pray and we gives thanks.not just we're in need.but its indeed and even every single thing.
4.we grow our faith spiritually.we repent and we praise Him for the holiness.we learn from the bible.not according to anyone.

i am really proud and i feel i am lucky because i chose the right way!
this is my believe!and its not a so called "religion".
it is a religion because people used to categorized it as a religion.
the relationship is the most "key" after all.

so..
what is your religion?

ohm larrr!

2011-02-21T01:26:00.002+08:00

well..just met 5 youths from HOPE S'pore today.
they came for the mission trip.to inspire us the youth ministry.
they are MingYu(21), Zac(17), Esther(17), YiLing(17) and JunLin(18).
young hor?lol..
i really looks old..ahem..MATURE among them..lol..but this is not the main point la..hahas
erm..okay.i was really touched by their spirit.
we just simply listened to their short testimony during slm..
i almost give a tear that time.it was nothing big..but i just simply so touched by their passion and serving heart.
n they've inspired me that..God will bless different people in different ways..
it just go according to your faith.not by your background,age,nations,or anything He has put in your life.
and i really solute them that they can serve fully with their gifting and talents.
they're all already Life Group Leader in their unit.
just a 17 youth..is already leading 30 over people..WOW!~
a very good point mentioned by MingYu..God give us one talent,and you're expected to multiply it into two.
when you're given 5talents,you need to multiply it more.
thats the way you gain your gifting.and thats the way you can shine for God.
make ourself Christ-centered.live yourself a biblical and stunning life.

and another thing is about giving and investing in the Kingdom of God.
in other to say we give and bless others.we invest in God's Kingdom.
because we believe that God will multiply it.God is going to bless you in different ways.
this is the investment we made in Him,in His Kingdom,in His way,not by our own way.

i really thank God and appreciate these young bro n sis who willing to spend time with us.
they are really awesome.
i just see them so lenglui and lengchai when they're sharing.(not to say they're not handsome and pretty la..lol)
they just simply catch my eyes on them the time they shine.i am so much encouraged!

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."--1 Timothy 4:12

yes with faith we can do great thing!
with the Spirit we can gain victory!
whatever age you're now,God is putting you in different position.
yes!NIKE!(just do it!!!) ^^

2011-02-17T01:37:00.000+08:00

哎哟~！尴尬呐~！
天啊，怎么办？
越来越不会处理这些事了啦~
哎哟~呼~！
谁来救救我啊？
lol..~
还是做回自己好了啦。。
其余的，不想烦，也不该烦，
因为掌权的还是祂！嘻嘻！
好啦，我要保持我喜乐的心！哇哈哈！！！

2011-02-15T09:30:00.001+08:00

很好，你头也不回的走掉。
很好，你让我知道你后悔年少。
很好，让我拆开你的假面罩。
很好，我的心也死了。=）

觉得自己的心情已经不像以前了。
还看得很开，蛮不错的嘛！哈~
感谢神啦！不管如何，这是改变不了的事实，也是我生命的一部分了。
只想忘记背后，努力面前的。
乌拉巴哈！神赐我大大的力量！！！！^^

沟通，这门功课阿。。

2011-02-15T01:20:00.003+08:00

我这后人物阿，就是太过情绪化咯。
但是自从牧者的开导后，开始学习沟通这门功课咯。
我发现，在不同的社交圈子里，面对不同的人，要用不同的方式。

今天，感谢神！又是一个学习作业啦。
在面对太平的弟兄姐妹，不同于金宝的弟兄姐妹，是大家的相处方式。
曾经，怀疑过自己是否是他们的一群，所以特别小心处理自己的态度。
最害怕的，就是尴尬的时刻。天啊！哈~到现在还不懂怎么解决。=p
我试着用比较随心和自然的来与他们沟通，但最近发现，情况并没有好转。
一群人在相聚的时候，冷场的场面还会出现。
前天又开始思考自己是否在他们面前显得太幼稚。
（其实是因为我常碰壁。嘻！）
终于，一切的一切，在昨晚都分享出来了。

真的很感谢神，让我有机会坦白自己，并从中学习。
认真地，清楚地，知道了，有时候，不可以太在意别人对自己的看法，
重要的是神，如何看待你。还有凡事都县查问自己的态度。
因为我们都是罪人，我们没有停止学习的一刻。
因为“衪说我来是要召罪人悔改，不是召义人”。--路加福音5：32
我们也必须学会谦卑及委身，互相向弟兄姐妹学习。
教会这个大家庭，是最好训练自己的地方。
“凡自高的，必降为卑；自卑的，必升位高”--路加福音14：11

看来，还有很多很多等着我去领受哦！
期待中~哈！
我爱你们，我的弟兄姐妹们！=）

be my valentines

2011-02-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

my 21st valentine's..what will it be?
lol..sadly i am alone..nobody date me out lar..lols
hmm..actually im hoping for a "healthy" date..
can fellowship..can do some exercise..can shopping..can chat..have fun together..
but..stuck at taiping liao.mum dun let me to go back..
lol..but its ok..lets see how "special" will it be. =p

well,i've found out that..
a person who will attract others,is with a very sincere heart.
the beauty of a pinkish heart,the inner-self is still the most important one.
im still having this same answer no matter how many times my friends asked.lol

"do you have a valentine?"
NO.
hahas..and i am not ashame n regretted.
because this is the time..to being single!woohoo!
lets party!haha..ahem~okie..stop my craziness..

you're my valentines..whoever i love..are my valentinessss..
so..be my valentines.=)
let your love spread around and making this world more adorable.
let's do it! <3

recent news

2011-02-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

whoa..i saw spider web at my page's corner..

alright,lets talk bout some highlights.

time to let my pics to speak again..

herher..since i never post after my exam,sembreak,and started new sem..

too much to talk..=)

ohw..the nearest and cutest thing..mummy adopted toy dog poodle..

He is so dear in my house now..

lol..everyone touch him sayang him..

my mum..fuyoh,,everyday train him..lol

they named him Happy.

so..this is our new family member! ^^ isn;t it cute?

next,a short break of celebration of bunny year.

well,5of us(cousins) decided to make another video recording.

love the way we play and having fun together.

despite all the cacat singing + stupid poses..that are so precious to us.

its memory in making.

i wish..every year we can continue to celebrate the same way.

so..heres the result..

haha!

so much satisfy because im the director and editor for all..

and special thanks to my aunties which willing to crazee togerth..hahas

well,this is last year's.

comparing to this year's.so much improved right?haha..

good quality somemore..=p (cause zying bought new camera)

ok..so..my new sem..way to another peak.

well,tough subjects this sem..hopefully,i can overcome it!

this is the first day of my year 2 sem 3!

a sad thing to tell here..

my housemate next door was terminated and din continue to study anymore..

i miss her so much!T.T

eventhough we're not close lk best fren,but the days the time whenever we are together,

are so nice..happy,sad,silly things..

1345 housemate are losing one by one..now left 3 only.

anyhow,i hope we are still besties together.

and i wish you'll find your future along with God.

shes a very simple and obedient sister.this is the biggest thing i like of her.

the rest of her made her a farewell dinner at secret recipe.

and we also headed to batu gajah again to refresh our memorable days..

friendship forever!hope we had given you the best one!jia you PYPY! =)

ohhh..a not very long but yet not very short sem break..

did something meaningful.

the movie part,we went for "the great day"..

this is the first time i cried at least 4times in the cinema..

i duno isit the story is too close to my daily life..

but i really love this movie very very much..

m'sia film..not bad ma!

somemore got moral velue ler..i like this kind of movie lar..=)

oops..i dun watch movie like this kay..=p

just try to pose in the cinema hall..hahas

the dinner before the movie at staion one.

little scallop.

oh..my dear grandma...

i fetch her to perm her hair during my holidays too..

i really appreciate her so much.

shes always being so "ke qi"..

dun lk to ma fan ppl..

this time i was the on who suggest to fetch her out..

need to give her excuse that i go out to do something only she follow..lol

here..to announce..my "big star" is officially retired!

back to kampar with daddy to bring him back and sun bian take my new 2nd car,"xiao bai" from my relative.

i still miss big star..but i also appreciate xiao bai..

i will try to take good care of my new "pet".thanks daddy and mummy! =)

faster take the last chance to capture in big star..lol..

ooo..another highlights..super models went outdoor photo shooting at maxwell and taiping.

cheh..haha..

nola..just a little excitement during the days..

a very great exp for me..not that easy to pose infront of the cam..lol..

thanks to my friend Kenny for the kindness and patient..hahas..

though we missed out kuala sepetang shooting..it already give me a very wonderful time.^^

this is something i wanna do for a long time..hahas..

seems very sampat la..but i wish to see theres alot of "me" in a pic..lol

never forget the family trip at the very beginning of my sem break..

went family trip at kl and genting.

from this pic..i saw myself getting HUGE again..>.<

sad wei..

the Christmas celebration.hahas..thank God i can celebrate with bro and sis.

both Hope Kampar's and also FGA's.

this is the time after celebrate at FGA,we went for 3D movie.

a very boring movie..i still rmb few of them slept during the movie..

hahas..i also almost fall asleep..anyway..great time there! =p

this is celebration at kampar..lol..

i also dunno y i pose like this....@#$%^&*

lastly,the study time during the fimals..lol

its not very great but i can deny this is part of my life.

so in order to suffer with it,i try to enjoy it! =)

my crazee housemate who study until like this..hahas!

this is also my study pic..ahaha..just simple love my hair in this pic..=p

well..ok..no more highlights..

speaking about the recent me..i think..i've changed again..

not only physical la wei..and also mental and spiritual.

too stress?i guess so..

i hope everything can back to normal very soon..

i also need to jia you le!

pray for ms.J oh! =)

解不开的梦

2011-01-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

同样的人，不同的场景。。却带着一样的讯息。。

是什么？

为什么这人会闯进我的梦里？

数夜了。。却还是百思不解。。

难道这真是潜意识的魔力？

我不懂。。。

sermon in the dream

2010-12-31T16:06:00.001+08:00

2010的最后一个晚上，

上帝在梦里向我说话。

他接着一个人，一个我最熟悉的陌生人，分行了两个道：

1。敬畏你的神，乃是抱着一颗定睛仰望的灵。

2。时刻宣扬祂的名，经常练习说道。

this is something quite strange i know..

but it was so real after i awake from that dream..

i can remember even how the person present the sermon..

i believe this is another new mission for me in coming 2011.

i thank God for the past..for every single day was a gift!

and i pray that God will continue to lead me,bless me in the coming days.

i wanna stand firm n be strong! =)

p/s:2010..its been a fruitful year.i was so blessed with all the days dat build my characteristics and inner-self.i hope the coming year will be another new starts for the bad and new challenge come onward!be ready!

presents to my strange LOVE one..

2010-12-17T10:25:00.000+08:00

hmm..found this lyrics very interesting..

and suddenly it just live in my messy mind..

and when i couldn't find the original mv from youtube..

so i decided to make my own cover..lol

my throat still ntyt recover(fyi,im having sore throat and bad coughing)

and this is my sexy voice..=p

i know..it sounds lk something cnt come out from the throat..

hahas..its ok la..

just another individual time during the revision..

enjoy~

★iM nOt A sTaR★

迷茫的阶段

Matthew 11：28-30

superlady for the day!

Eppi Cny

美女厨房

心灵 大扫除

说不上的难过

心灵 加油站

who you are?

new plan!

你好啊 2012

对不起

[ 秘密 ]

这个圣诞不一样

梦魇

count down!!

缓

遗梦

As you wish..

我的苹果？你的苹果？

强者 vs 弱者

梦 | 醒时分

i am a better man because of You

stormy situation

一物二用，一体二面，一像也有二照！=p

im not a star

- 哲学 -

独白

roller coaster

喜乐

初恋这小事！

我的三千烦恼丝！

pure heart

给我个理由，哭

whats better than these?

rise of hope

困惑

day off !

另种悟

遇 | 见

汪洋的旅程

暖心 cover

唯_ 爱

我是傻大姐？

a thoughtful action

get my boyfriend's jeans

the motto

祝福的祷告,代祷的祝福

trainee auditor's routine

a good morning.|an easy tuesday.|a simple message.

love letter for someone who shared more than half of my life

周末记--杂

哭

when im ME

cry out to Him

new stage

stay tuned

sweets

soul surfer

照片 与 人生

angry bird life

夜市风光

这一条窄路

找回

be a brave good girl

the season

return in order!

用生命歌唱~

我不是你想象那么勇敢

the unusual holidays

11052011

道路-真理-生命

Your will,but not my will.

dream guy of mine.^^

religion??

ohm larrr!

沟通，这门功课阿。。

be my valentines

recent news

心灵大扫除

心灵加油站

照片与人生