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Dear diary,

You’ve never been forgotten. Life is filled with tons of work and loads of serving. Days have never seems to be easy for me since I join the working club!
Im so sorry dear, never meant to be neglect you. Please allow me to cut my stories short and direct.

ever since i've graduated. i am fully drained with all the pressure to survive on earth. Everything im pursue-ing needs money..needs time..but one thing im so sure after i did my 2013 resolution list..Career is definitely not my main focus..i work..to LIVE!







alright..honestly..has been actively searching for job for the past 2 months..and went up for few job interviews after that..but i've rejected everyone of it til now..still have two pending interviews..heh
seriously, i dun know what should i go for..i think i wish to do sales..but there is one offer for me and require me to go for outstation..at least a week every month..huh! so this is the barrier!
a lot a lot to story..huh..one word to conclude -- "miserable"

fortunately i have lovely leaders and pastors, peers and mentor. a lot of input advises for me. why don't i chase after the talents, giftings and dreams that i ever have in my life?
hmm..yea..i love music..i love singing..and this..is my calling from God!(so far)
still remember the vision i received in "M4J" conference right before i come to PG?
let me tell u, the picture came true!
the vision came true!






i almost forgotten it! but it came true!
this is a biggg step for me..within four months time, God transform me from a nobody to somebody.
i can never imagine myself becoming a worship leader in church. dun even mention about worship leading in City Harvest church..this is like..impossible!
i always think that im suit to become a backup singer..just because i like to sing in second voice..but then..i really never know..i am called to dream bigger!
yes..today im worship leading..not good yet..but im improving time by time..still shivering for stage freight. but its cool! real cool! im happily serving!
though it needs better commitment, higher effort, more time to invest in this bigger role. but im enjoying it and learning at the same time..






thats why..i dun wanna let go of this calling..i dun wanna let go of what i wanna do for Him..
of course, it cost me to pay, to sacrifice..because this is my priority in life!
it has took over the priority even for my work..yes..this is how passion i am doing it..
*sighs* dats y..head super big for thinking of what should i do..

huh..keep on praying hard praying hard..lead me to the right direction please.