complex ceation which is faithfully made.

READ me and you'll know who i am and who am i.

you know you love me.

有时候，我不知道，前方的路，该怎么走下去。
惟有信靠，凭着信念勇敢走下去。

我完全，厌倦了我的工作，一点都不想让它，成为我生命的全部。
而事实上，我必须花上三分之一的时间，再做我不想做的事。
这是何等的一种折磨！！
然而，我并不想就这么放弃回到家乡去！
我很想紧紧抓住我的呼召！

叹！！！
我真的已经不懂该怎么办！
退堂了三份工作（因为不适合）
我不懂是因为这份工作让我有了阴影，
我不敢再情谊的接受一份工作！
尤其是，有女上司的工作！

天啊，有什么事可以让我提起劲来埋头工作吗？
感觉自己快要干掉了！
一方面不停的浇灌成长，一方面却不停地把我往下拉！

怎么办？？？










Dear diary,

You’ve never been forgotten. Life is filled with tons of work and loads of serving. Days have never seems to be easy for me since I join the working club!
Im so sorry dear, never meant to be neglect you. Please allow me to cut my stories short and direct.

ever since i've graduated. i am fully drained with all the pressure to survive on earth. Everything im pursue-ing needs money..needs time..but one thing im so sure after i did my 2013 resolution list..Career is definitely not my main focus..i work..to LIVE!







alright..honestly..has been actively searching for job for the past 2 months..and went up for few job interviews after that..but i've rejected everyone of it til now..still have two pending interviews..heh
seriously, i dun know what should i go for..i think i wish to do sales..but there is one offer for me and require me to go for outstation..at least a week every month..huh! so this is the barrier!
a lot a lot to story..huh..one word to conclude -- "miserable"

fortunately i have lovely leaders and pastors, peers and mentor. a lot of input advises for me. why don't i chase after the talents, giftings and dreams that i ever have in my life?
hmm..yea..i love music..i love singing..and this..is my calling from God!(so far)
still remember the vision i received in "M4J" conference right before i come to PG?
let me tell u, the picture came true!
the vision came true!






i almost forgotten it! but it came true!
this is a biggg step for me..within four months time, God transform me from a nobody to somebody.
i can never imagine myself becoming a worship leader in church. dun even mention about worship leading in City Harvest church..this is like..impossible!
i always think that im suit to become a backup singer..just because i like to sing in second voice..but then..i really never know..i am called to dream bigger!
yes..today im worship leading..not good yet..but im improving time by time..still shivering for stage freight. but its cool! real cool! im happily serving!
though it needs better commitment, higher effort, more time to invest in this bigger role. but im enjoying it and learning at the same time..






thats why..i dun wanna let go of this calling..i dun wanna let go of what i wanna do for Him..
of course, it cost me to pay, to sacrifice..because this is my priority in life!
it has took over the priority even for my work..yes..this is how passion i am doing it..
*sighs* dats y..head super big for thinking of what should i do..

huh..keep on praying hard praying hard..lead me to the right direction please.