complex ceation which is faithfully made.

READ me and you'll know who i am and who am i.

you know you love me.

独自/孤独，对你来说，是怎么一回事？



heard this song on the way to work this morning..








有些人，就是那么任性。
他们非得把自己忙得不可开交，才甘愿。
有时候，会在乎一些不再属于自己的东西。
明明知道，他们即使不会回心转意，却还是过意不去。
偏偏心力交战，情绪常常胜过了理智。
选择了让自己受伤一次……又一次

回不去了，一切，不再未为迟也。
希望我，这任性的小孩，可以好好长大。
在伤害里，学习复原！茁壮·！

现在，是我不想多说的时候……
maybe i just dun deserve to know more..
...its ok..im gonna be alright

so i did this! =p my new flats! nice?

and of course! im not the type worker-holic! im sure u knew it if you really know me! =p
there! i joined Hope Penang working adult's cell group!
lol..my very first WO cell group!
erm..young adults la..but im the youngest still..lol
but they end up flying the paper aeroplane!
woi! i found it hard to fold an aeroplane ler!
childhood?! they are like centuries ago!!!

they're lovely!

i will go Hope penang service, CHC Penang, and also 喜宣 to explore first..
i have sisters to guide me! ehe! so blessed! ^^

ohh! i went back Kampar to visit my HK!!!
they are so missed all the time!
i dunno how to say..i just feel im really home! the place that i always belongs to.
i feel lk im like a kampong girl u know..living in the city..and felt so left out from the others!
their life..not the same with the one i used to..
i am so not sure i still feel comfortable to joing those mega churches in the city or not.
i need a warm place la..
hmm..no decision til i explore it..tee-hee!

went back and have  大大杯 as my lunch after service! haha..

honey dew milk! ummmm~~

and i surprised all of them included my shepherd and sheep, none of them know my vist!
hahas..now i dun feel scared to drive alone in the highwas anymore..
im so free to go anywhere! lol
but haiz...everyone is asking about my face!
im really sad la..haiz..stop questioning me..
i got no idea what happened! =(
still trying to cure it, of course went for facial treatment!

and now i wanna set up a really healthy lifestyle!
workout workout workout!!!
we have gym room at the work place!
our company provides free aerobics classes and zumba dance classes!
hehe! me n frens just joined!
its really hard for the body stretching part!
i just gave up some times =p
i am even lousy than one of the aunty in the class! LOL
nvm..i'll improve haha!

and i spent my savings for this!!! im total broke now!! ush! motivate me to gym more!

usually we wil have girls talk after the lunch!haha it is our colorful pantry! just grab a cup of coffee, teh tarik or milo from the free vending machine everyday! great time over there! ^^

this is my HP elite book provided by company! a not bad one!

dinner treat at Hammer Bay--the seaside! thanks Gwen and her bf brought me there! love the ikan bakar!!

this is the coaster highway to bayan lepas.. but usually i dun use this road to my company.. i use the air port way behind! thats why everyday i will see planes! the air port is right behind our company only! working time also can see them flying!

took free vitamins from out company curse room!hahas its for my face! >.<

"Don't obsess over the occasional pimple.
Most ridicule that seemingly stems from "poor looks" is actually targeted at perceived emotional vulnerabilities.
If you don't make a big deal about it, people will not notice it.
Even for the "horrifying" pimples, sure, people may give you some funny looks, but they'll quickly get used to it and won't pay them any attention.
Keep in mind that to any sane human, gossiping about someone's pimple is not the most riveting of conversation topics, so don't feel paranoid that people are secretly laughing at you.
Everyone gets a few pimples when they're growing up, so don't expect that much interest, as you are most definitely not a unique case."--quoted by friend A.
(thanks for yout comforting words!haha!)

ok..so keep it btw u and me from now on!! shhhhh~~~ =p



ok!im going back to Taiping on this firday again!hahas
lil bro is having the final session of singing competition at the district area.
fully support!! hehe!
he post a lot one! not afraid at all! so cute!
ahaha..have to learn from him!


okie! til now!!! =DD
getiing super busy with the Japanese visit this week!
konichiwa!!!watashiwa Jessica desu!!
hajimemashite!!
oya tsunimasai!! sayonara!!!
(fuhh! studied Japanese during uni finally not wasted! =p)



甜言蜜语，男人爱说，女人爱听。
甜言蜜语，时常让一个人沉醉在一段关系里面。
但是，通常从“男人”口中脱口而出的，只听30%就够了！
因为在那些油腔滑调的口吻里，背后的动机都比不单纯！
这世上有谁不爱听赞美的话阿？
男人啊男人，不管是哪个对你来说“最完美”的那个男人，你永远不能完全掌握他的心思。
这一刻，他让你拥有天长地久。
可能下一秒，它追求海阔天空，而你，除了失落？还是一场空？

我今天写下这番，是为了提醒我自己，随时保持清醒！
经一事长一智，这一次，我不可以轻易沦陷！
始终，我不需要一个太出色的“他”。
简简单单，却又是最真诚，懂得珍惜我的，是最好的。

而我也很清楚，我不是最好的，也没有比别人出众的。
请你，接受一个比平凡更平凡的我。
imma, the girl next door!
花言巧语，生人勿近！










真爱的习惯，是一种持续；

持续的习惯，是一种想念；

想念的习惯，是一种秘密；

秘密的习惯，是一种等待。

等待，真爱。-- 馨之著



我发现，时下的女生（至少是我身边的），都有这种习惯。
一个我也犯上的习惯。
她们写的部落格，和我一样的隐秘。
不懂会有谁看，甚至还有些把他们“私藏起来”。
但很好笑的是，她们每次都会幻想着，读者，就是自己的对象。
完全的说话，完全的自然。
可是，明明知道，那个人，并没有在看，也并不会知道你的信息。
可偏偏，这是一种[惯犯]。

这，也是我的习惯！=p

你，神秘的读者阿，你是谁啊？
哈哈！

If I could be any part of you, I’d be your tears. 

To be conceived in your heart, born in your eyes,

 live on your cheeks, and die on your lips.

Hmm..dun get me wrong,i dress like a designer but im not. =p
nah nah nah..dun ask me..i also dunno what happened to my face..
really wanna cry when i see it in the mirror..
urshhhhhh


hey you..you!
You know what?
if today you pushed me away and rejected me,then why are you expecting me will still stand right here and watching your back?
I just need to learn to turn away from now.
You!free from you!
tara! to the better me!!!








jiak! i've been trying very hard to adapt penang lang life style here for the past 7days~
seiously, penang lang, very bo siang!!LOL
they told me about the life style, whats their culture, and what they usually do..
to be honest, i dun really like the way they hang out..
i mean, i dun club, i dun drink..hmmm..they're like got a lotof time hanging out around with frens..
but i wonder, if i got so much time to lepak around?lol
full time working is not easy man..come back still need to do chores and all that..
okok..nvm..lets see how im going to figure out soon..=p



so, the very first week..i met a lot of challenges dah!
challenge #1--penang lang drive extremely violent
ohhh...orang kampong like me super scared la..lol
they dun practice bertolak ansur at all, and they dun follow the rules one..never!
wuuhhhhh..my friend said, soon i will be one of them..i guess, im forced to be..lol
if u dun dare to step out, you will never have the chance to..

challenge #2--penang lang's language
commonly, chinese here speak hokkien, therefore, youngster here speak english campur hokkien!
this is so challenging wey! i used to speak cantonese, mandarin in my study place..
but here.totally different!
and in my work place there is malays, and  i speak very cacat malay..i have to learn a lot then!hehe

and speaking about my work place, let me story how actually is my position inside.
the whole department(quality assurance) the is three main teams inside..all those engineering teams
and im in the team of "Quality Management System"..
so inside the team, there is my Supervisor, 2 leaders, 3workers, one interns and me..
all of them are married aunties, except the intern malay guy..
so, im the youngest inside! >.<

well, whats my job scope now?
i will be taking care of customer audit from now on..which previously is just done by my supervisor
hence i will be a lil assistant for her now..
helping her in the audit and management, dealing a lot with the engineers and customers.
besides, i will become one of the coordinator to take charge of the regulatory requirement..
fuhh man! the past few days i was just given the specs to read and study their procedure and all that..
that was sooooo boring!
a lot of pro technical terms inside that made me confused!
usually they hire engineers in this department(most of them are)..i dunno y they hire me..lol..im lucky kot?



one if the series of product..i have to memories..but for me..they just look all the same.. =/
challenge #3--different accent for different nationality
i'll be dealing with the customer from all around he world like London, Japan, Euro, Australia, US...
last friday i got the chance to "involved" in my supervisor's national conference call meeting..
OMG!! though i just sit there and listen..but i felt supa supa stress!
so hard to catch their lines..i was like....can i have subtitle? =.=
my weak listening skill, gonna be polished!
the first customer will be Japanese the week after i will be meeting them dy..
will be lotsa preparation this week i guess?




challenge #4:--recognising new roads
poor me, i just got to know the only way to go office and way back home
start to explore and experience got lost in the middle of the way
luckily i have GPS..=p

these are all the difficulties im facing currently..
but in the other side, i have lots of blessings too!
there is so much that God has prepared for me over here!

im lucky to have my aunt place to stay now before i move into the condo..
at least they guided me and gv me some tips.lol
and i was praying for at least meeting one christian in my work place..
and the first person i get to know, already a Christian! haha!
and all the time we mix together, shes an Euroasian, named Gwendolyn Tricia Kressler.supa geng i can remember her name..lol
really so grateful for that!
and shes local penang lang..so can bring me out..lol
very ngam one her bf is staying in the same garden here..very very near..
hmmm..God is so good!!!haha

and workplace ah..very very flexible..haha
u can go work anytime..they just want your result and as long as you work 8hours everyday..the time is not important..keke (euro company is more flexible)
besides, our company practice "short friday"!haha
every friday if you completed your task you can go back at 3pm..nice right?
haha..so i have shorter working hour..=p hooray!!!



but i heard my colleague say our department have lotsa urgency on friday one..lol
lets see..
but last friday our department have a short "durian festival" on short firday.
after3pm, everone is invited to join..
just go and eat as much as you can..lol
well i dun eat durian, and i dun like mangoesteen(they're sour lar...) so i am forced to eat rambutans..lol
but i had fun knowing new ppl there!

they said this one very holiao one! all kind of branded durian you can find here!

forced to take one..supa sour! yuksss

i prefer seedless fruit, too bad i still need to eat them

interns trainees

everyone enjoying

higher level workers in the department

lego time with my lil cousins..

thats how i past my time during the rest time =p

so..i am really striving hard to adapt the life here..










heard this during my jamming session after work..=p
its warm, sweet and sour..
love his voice..though its not a new song
but it makes me feel very different from the original one from Fish Leong
this is recorded for her concert as Alvin is her guest for the concert.
hit it if you have time. enjoy! ^^

taken in the office ;p forgive me i was just getting too bored

today is not a good day. >.<
im super worry for my bro..pls pray for him so that he can adapt his new study environment quickly.
i have damn damn face..gosh..super serious pimples now..(stress + new environment caused) =.=
and tomorrow gonna start my job war!! ahhhhh
gonna present during the departmental meeting..dat is crazeeee!! *bichiosohhh!!*
toh toh toh!~!! update more soon..haiz..no time yet..everything is so not stable..
i hope my bro is ok tomoro..ahhh...pls "Amen".thanks.



zang zang zzzzang zzzzzaaannngggg!!!
now who is back? well i am BACK!
now who is back? well i am BACK!
now who is back yo? well i am BACK yo yo yo!!!

dang dang deng deng dong dong~!!
lets have a live interview with Mr.Baby Bear for his new life to become Penang Lang soon...





anyo anyo!!
我是今天的主持人，MissJ！
今天，我们很荣欣邀请到Mr.Baby Bear来到我们现场接受访问！
























首先，我们很有兴趣想知道，对于明天开始新的生活，即将在槟城展开新生活的你，有何感想？
现在心情如何呢？













































咦？怎么不说话呢？
看起来好像心情不太好噢？