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Monday, June 4, 2012
just "something"
hmmm..yesterday is kinda wonderful for me..
though my heart is still hanging around there..
but meeting and gathering with family is bringing me back to a lot of childhoods.
we talked a lot of “想当年”..haha
last time, we used to play under the tree..
playing with all the sands, woods, stones and leaves..
dancing with the dancing pad! owh! i missed that so bad!
how excited we were to go bermise to "swim".
how stupid we were..and how innocent we were..
but now, we're all different.
growing up and facing different challenges in life.
awwww~hoe great if i were still five!
hmm..wont have to know all the dark side of this world.
being innocent like always.
suddenly, dun feel like growing anymore.
haiz..because im really scared.
after the happening, i am really timid now.
im so scared of being alone in the dark now.
i would imagine any possibilities of accident, dangers, all kind of scary moment ANYTIME!
i dun feel safe and peace anymore.
this is making me so tired.
to being that alert anytime.
why this world became so ugly since i grow up?
i have to accept and learn how to protect myself.
i wish i know kungfu...! =.=
urgh..the world is still telling me theres more and more evil side out there..
waiting for me to accept all the facts you know.
huhhh...what to do?
im so tiny..dat i can;t do anything to stop all that.
the Mr.X i mentioned before, is still liking the "Xlaine" photos.
i still will see it pop up in my news feed.
still, i feel really uncomfortable with that.
i just not ready to accept facts about guys i guess.
and of course he is still like this la..he din know i am paying attention to this.
but i thought of what sushi told me last time, i can't continue to enlarge one's weakness and ignore their good side.
if so, im going to become a lesbian one day! O.M.G!
this is not a joke.
recently i am so sensitive to those guy's eyes looking at girls.
i really beh tahan ahhhhh! supre geli!
aiks..okok..i have to learn to ignore dy..just be myself thats it..
i dun wanna continue to let myself pull down in this evil swirl anymore.
i need some positive input!
oh! i think i need this book!
this is recommended by my dear Vanness and Vannessa! (they both tweeted this..=p)
i searched online for it but still cant find out theres is any stock in M'sia.
eheh! i better finish my books on rack first..bwahahaha.
or anyone can help to get it?ehhhh..please?
10:13 AM
