complex ceation which is faithfully made.

READ me and you'll know who i am and who am i.

you know you love me.

... ... i cried in such hour.
its tears of joy + tears of bitter..complicated.
its mainly because mummy texted me and greeting me happy birthday.
im so touch. "happy birthday and good luck."
its sounds so simple..but it mean a lot for me.
mummy like never say something like this to me..
everytime my bday she will ask my bro to give me a call and talk to me..
but not herself one..
...thats y im touched..
but in the meanwhile, i thought of that person.
shXt..thats my darkest point today i think..
i mean..i dun expect myself to have expectation from him..but i just did.
why there is people purposely ignore me?
is there a need to torture me lkdis?
i feel so stupid for caring this stupid relationship.
yah..thats the "friendship" he meant i guess.

i just wanna focus on my last exam now..no more celebration pls.
...im just so tired.