all right, tomorrow early in the morning ill be driving all alone to ipoh to visit mum at the specialist hospital.
her operation is at 0830.
though she say no need to visit her, but i know she is nervous and scared too.
my mum, a woman that never easily express her feelings.(except hot tempered)
we're growing up day by day and i can see elders are all getting old too.
just came back from prayer meeting.
thank God at least im calm now.
really touched by people around that being that supportive to me.
i mean, their help is just right on the time!
even someone that u never expect they'll turn up lending me a hands on.offer prayer or anything.
i really appreciate that.
but in the mean time, i also appreciate those discouragement.
bad things doesn't happen on a quota just like time never stop.
some of them doesn't intense to help or even threw out words that create insecurity..
i..actually mad at them.
but thank God, He reminds me of something.
i tried to see things through a different dimension.it's definitely not the same anymore!
when all that happened just for a purpose, i believe there is.
nah, i appreciate those unhelpful advise, unhelpful faces, unhelpful action sincerely.
life is tough and i am tougher because my God is the toughest!
so and i prayed and prayed.
right now is just for one thing.
i beg Him for not taking any of my love ones from me.
seriously,i don't think im ready to handle that.
looking at the elders, i am really afraid.
i don't want the alarm to be alarmed that fast!
oh God, i can't imagine it! just dont...!
i'd rather You take away my own health, and i don't mind sacrificing my time to be there for anyone of them.
just don't..just don't..have any 'in case' for me!
mmm...alright! thats nonsense!
of course God knows me well. He knows who i am ma right?
okie..gotta spent some time to pray before im bed and get enough sleep to drive that early tomorrow.
that'd be a challenge for me. yo!
big girl learns independent! :)
