do you realize the power of smiling?
i encountered it once again today.
as usual, i tend to enjoy my working life and keep my joy no matter what.
"you should be happy. you see Lee is HAPPIER. you should not looks sad all the time."
the queen told one of my colleague about that.
actually i din't hear it, i was doing the job on hand.
but right after this sentence, another colleague just comment on me.
"wow jiaxin, i din't know that you have such great performance until the boss can praise you in front of others."
"huh?is it?when?"
"just!she said........."
this is what happened today!
jealousy?i don't know whats wrong with her.maybe shes just not meant it.
i din't get an anger on her but this took me into another thought.
thank God i am able to make people around to feel the joy inside me.
i don't have to tell anyone i am happy by saying "hey,i am happy!"
smiley. that is such a gift from God !!
i don't want to draw myself into bad mood with just the load tasks or anything.
i want to get myself enjoy enough and appreciating everything i have.
and i think theres nothing wrong with it.
and you think people din't see it?they even feel it.
i know,others maybe they will showed up a bit of frustration on their face.(of course boss knows it)
sure i have frustration too. but i wont let it spoil my day.
that is so not efficient and effective to carry on the work!seriously.
when i made mistake, i smile.
when i look into anyone's eyes, i smile.
when i respond, i smile.
when i talk, i smile.
when i listen, i smile.
and thats why, the queen see me as HAPPIER.=)
everyone dislike to listen the nonsence of the queen.
when they get smart and frustrated, they don't respond and avoiding eye contact with her.
but for me, i gave her a smile as responding, thats it.
this is a manners la c'on. how can you don't look at the person while he or she is talking to you?
anyway, i really thinks that a smile can change the world.
thats how i see it, do it, and i enjoy it! ^^ praise God for that!
p/s: no offense people! im just writing down what i think. you can be you. but if you're wiling, try out the smiley method, it brings you to better. ;)
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8:59 PM
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
stormy situation
well well well, fyi one of my colleague has resigned and yest was her last day.(forced to)
okie, this is kinda long story and im really lazy to start it right from the beginning.lol
erm she has been worked for more than 3 years, yeh a permanent worker there.
right at the first day of our work, the QUEEN told us not to stay near with her.
was told that she always cheat and she is a fool.
and that time we just follow the instruction but not really isolated her like virus la.
we just avoided to ask her questions.
and the queen is really dislike her until the stage i can say she hates her.
everything done by her, she will show us(everytime we enter her room,mostly is showing and telling us all the stories)
she thinks that she've been fooling her for 3 years.
honestly, we can't judge and we can't stand any side because we still don't know which is the truth.
she did a lot of mistakes, which we think that she is very careless.
but sometimes really the mistakes were too horrible. and thats why the queen will just cite her that shes in her plan.
the queen is way too sensitive.(no offense)
u can't imagine how mad she is until u've been told bout her thinking.
even theres flies or butterflies appeared in the office, she will said it was a curse!which is curse by her!
OMG~that was such a joke.
and in the other way round, the queen keep on repeating that she is a christian,and nobody can beats her because her God is almighty.
but why?why is she keep on suspecting?
huh..she sometimes did ruined my day.
til now,everyday i never missed out the chance being called in to her room.
and the times now is going in alone most of the time dy.
she says, "because you're a christian, so i'll tell you more."
ok thats good, i have this identity.
but is this gonna be good to me for at the early morning i will be listening all this nonsense and i can say nothing about it?
i feel pathetic over all this.
wanted to help but i don't know how..she is so insecure!!
the resignation is good for her. she is really patient by holding on all the humiliations by the queen. this is the scene we see by our own eyes.
we din't know whether she did something or its just nonsence.
for me, i just wanna treat everybody fair and nice. because i don't have the authority to judge.
intense to neutralize the atmosphere there and i thought i can bring colors.
yes, i guess i did my part.
we're friends now but sadly she left.
reluctantly i hope that she can get a better offer and enjoy her work next time.
so, now, whats the situation in the office now?
another two trainee will be leaving this week too.
totally we have just three trainee, one permanent worker and one secretary in the office.
and this is year end man. account closing period.
not only carry on with the portions left over but take up the responsibilities as a permanent workers.
phew..theres both good and bad sides la.
"i know u like to learn so i let you learn more."the boss always train me by throwing this sentence to me.lol
i mean i appreciate all this opportunities given, with abit of shivering.hahas.
y?she trained me to collect files and keeping files for two hours.
sounds easy right?
but theres ten over cabinets, twenty over shelfs and drawers..you'll be finding all those according to the name, some with code(better), but some don't.
they're arranged according to the alphabets but not in sequence anymore because the cabinets are all FULL!
everytime i open the cabinet, the files are like mudslide!
so dizzy to find out ONE file and somemore need to squat down stand up walk in and out!
and u know la..my memories are limited.
n the queen wanna train me to better so she will give me four company names each time and i need to memories and hand her the files.lol
hard eh! new and all weird weird names!
"ok..improved dy ma!good!" the queen just praised me in the second hour.LOL
my fingers are now all cuts and slashes by all the files and paper,pain eh!
and i have skin allergic for almost 3 months dy. now still plus all these dirty files with dusts!gosh~everyday also itchy one.(taken medicine and cream still not recovering.they said this is season allergic??)
lol..today i somemore went for a business travel to simpang..went to bank..
many things to do..my muscle so pain now.and i haven't finish my reports!!!>.<
she boughts RM40 fruits for us.twice dy.
the cute things on the bouquet of the queen. and she gave it to me.
she asked me to buy a cake(she paid) when she know it was ah Lai's birthday and allowed us to back one hour earlier on saturday! 1kg of ice-cream cake.nice but hardly finish haha
i love ciku! =p
so as a conclusion..im kinda enjoy with all these business.hahas..better than the routine job for me.(yes i siao siao one!who cares? =p)
i really hope someday the queen can really find out a clue for her purpose in life.
actually shes treating us very good one.she bought quite a lot of foods for us eh.
all not cheap one lo. haiz..what to do?nobody is perfect.
pray for her lo..(so many times this appeared into my mind during the prayer time..)
i hope God can use me to bring something different to the place too!
at least til today, i have granted "cute", "silly", "good", "sampat", "brave"...ok!i'll take all this as compliments! hahas! ^^
8:15 PM
Monday, November 28, 2011
一物二用,一体二面,一像也有二照!=p
11:37 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2011
im not a star
still,i am not a star!
^^ but im now trying to shine like stars!
i don't care what and how you are thinking about me.
yeh i mean you!
because im happy being me! X)
j.o.y j.o.y
this is what it means..
Jesus first, You youself last, and Others in between~
lalalalala~
p/s: *blink blink* i really thank God for keep on reminding me the joy in Him with these few weeks' sermons. love my weekends peeps! and im busying with my class stuff and report this few days. update soon. check it out! muacks! i can shine like how my braces shine too! wahaha..
theres just some veins got slightly insane inside me.
theres time to remind myself, not to feel the world, not to see the world, not to hold the world.
back to the path!
"and now, dear children, continue in Him, so that when He appears we be confident and unshamed before Him at His coming." -- 1 John 2:28
7:13 AM
Monday, November 21, 2011
roller coaster
let me tel you what girls are.
usually they won't stick with the status quo like they always do.
the first second they can make up their mind to choose A and right after that sec they will just give up on that and go to the other B.
huh,my oh my monday night.
just spent time touching up my blackie white piano once i get back from work.
on choreographing a mash up songs that pops up in my mind last night.
immediately i searched for the lyrics and wrote it down.
and yah after a 15minutes i think i get all my chords done and something tickle little creative one on the intro and textures.
and here comes i force myself on the breakthrough to sing with my mouth and playing music with my own hands.
im not good on that.obviously.
i can hardly get myself into attention on both.can't balance it.
and see again,after i recorded down my draft clip.
i see this problem again.after a few times of repeating.
at first i was quite surprise with what it came our from my fingers,u know.
i thought that was not my playing.i think my lessons give me some ideas!thats great i think.
and i off to my lesson(piano lesson).
during the lesson my teacher just told me i am much better than the first time she met me.
erm..this is the 4th lesson, and she said i was just not happy with what i have previously.
and so i messed up myself.i just need a little bit of encouragement and affirmation to make myself into some sort of confident level, and i will be there!
and shes just keep on leading me on the firmness of the rhythm thingy.
hey,you won't notice you have improved until somebody told you that.(ummm,i mean me)
when i digested her comments and think back, thats true!
oh great, im much more sensitive with what i have now.=)
well,happy mood takes back from the lessons but just until then.
i came back to my recording again.I HAD THE WRONG KEY for my singing!
the pitch are so not right.i can't handle it well.
phew~thats my problem on focusing too much on just my music part.
see,i can't even realize it while im singing that time.duh!
feels like a water bomb throw on my face.
right now,i am not sure i can play like what i played today.
oh gosh,i need a FLUSHHHHH!!!
what a night.this are..you know..girl things!
10:58 PM
Sunday, November 20, 2011
like you know,im not that kind of oustanding person.
im not smart,i just figure out things.
im not that talented, i just keep on doing what i like.
im not pretty, i just tried up to be different.
im not perfect, i just someone who is unique and odd in this world.
huh,how to say?
i blew my day with an un-church sunday.
nah,not purposely,but yah,family..and it ends up this.
well, til now i should know, i shouldn't get myself into this swamp.
self developement!gosh i nearly forgotten this is my homework!
hey,writing down all these does help!(not crapping)
sometimes i really just find myself clear with something "inside" me.*mystery!*
tick-tock!i've left more than a month here.looking back what i've done.
oh no!i need a rush!
chasing out my goals before i back to kampar land!
and there, something busted up my mind today.
"When you come to a cross road, always choose the path that will never get you a 'what if...?' "
p/s: my little singing bees are buzzing up! wokey, i'll just enlight my night!
7:44 PM
Friday, November 18, 2011
喜乐
你创造了万物,万物是因你的喜乐而存活和被造。--启示录 4:11
因你的恩典,我,微笑。
因你的慈爱,我,微笑。
因你的怜悯,我,微笑。
因你的眷顾,我,微笑。
因你的荣耀,我,微笑!
我们活着,是要使神喜乐。
因着他的喜乐,我们,喜乐!
因着我们的喜乐,他,喜乐!
p/s:有没有发笑“喜”这个字很像一个笑脸?“口”总要张大才是喜乐哦! XD
10:48 PM
Thursday, November 17, 2011
初恋这小事!
i saw someone posted this on fb last night.
and i just clicked it i thought it was just another movie trailer.
after 5minutes only i realized it is the full complete movie.lol.*dumb*
curiousness made me continue to watch it.(while doing other things.haha)
erm..alright.just wanted to highlight that..it gave me another old school day's review.
TAN SHI YING..i thought of out "love-ship"!hahas..
erm..no tearing all the way round.
just eyes "sap sap" abit la..ahaha~ X)
hmm..was wondering is this movie meaningful?whats the value it brings to me?
nothing other than the reminders of the memories lo.
i think that,friendship is something that cannot be replaced.
no matter where u are,when you'll be, we needs(i need!) somebody there.
to share,and to care.whatever!just like the girls in the movie.
and about the love story,hmm..first love.yeh..a heart broke one.
someone stole my heart,my days and my soul, too i was.
never stop expressing your love to anyone i think!
thats not something bad for you to care about somebody and showing love.
just don't waste time for hiding yourself and miss something/someone meant to you.
lol.conclusion.a "not bad" movie la.watch, if you have time.hahas
p/s: pray for my brother, hes suspected denggi.thank God that at least hes able to back here(just).
and praise God for His protection on my grandpa,grandma and loves one.
hmm..love before its too late!
suddenly this song appeared in my mind.
and i just youtube it and sing it along.
after a buffer of the day, im so much calm with awakening mind,i guess.
a very intensive word came into my mind after the singing.
--"Pure heart"--
yes,i guess what i need is a pure heart.
the happenings just get myself into the emotional wave.
now,take a deep breathe, i see His grace.
open my palm and feeling the brezee air.
no,not tight fist.
yea, i should've open my heart and see things clearer.
and now, i came to a calm river, with crystal clear water.
peace, i have it with me.
smile and look up the above sky! (:
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.--Matthew 5:8
p/s:thinking to chop off my hair, but today the hair styler just ask me not to, just change another style.hmm..?should of should not? (~o~) .
such a long time i dun have the feelings like this since i left kampar land.
work + serve + play comes together!its like..wuuhoo!~
hahas..almost every night i have activities.but of course not hang out like aimless la.
u know,my time now is really so so so limited.
i spent one third of my day for sleeping(such a waste huh),one third to work(no choice),and left one third for myself only(life still goes on, spontaneous is my style! )LOL.
wokey,and i've great moments with my shi ying dear and JALEN TAN(scared u din see this.=p)
thanks for peuposely fetch me after work to fulfil one of my small dream!hahas..
what is dat?come, i show you~
this is it! i want Haagen dazs for my 19th bday.but it end up this.ahaha..not bad!
see,eat til so full.hahas.
and lately my working life quite colorful also.lol
other than the figure, i have "outings" with the boss.
lol.this week,i've been accompanied her to the fish market to buy fish, accompany her to attend malay wedding.
its during the working hour you know!
hahas..i see a lot of things la.
and i appreciate that~!though thats weird.lol
and we got two honeymoon day!boss was outstation for two days!=p
overall,had fun in the small spaces.ekekeke!all of the girls very naughty one..
i have a lot to tell about my boss.but mayb next time.this is for my pictures stories!hahas
what she bought us from her outstation.
first time attending malay's wedd.
they are rose lover.
the souvenir are no longer boiled eggs.lol.
and never the less,church time!tis week i have an officially serving time.with pre-inform and practices.
thank God for that opportunity!and this week is the birthday celebration time.
that was wonderful to have fun with so many kids!time to ask some of them to join youth i think.
meriah sangat!lol
erm..chak! =p
but its not Christmas yet!
so after all,im happy!
yes,none other word to describe but im just happy with my days!
for quite a long time,shopaholic has slowly forgot about her "job".lol.no longer then.
one day off is so precious to me.routine life is so frustrating.(i should've studied PR >.<)
ok,i spent my time with the girls~shopping spreeeeeeeeeee!!(not that crazy actually )
lots of stuff to get but with limited budget.lol
i don't know is it my problem.don't like to shop the shops that i used to.
i buy NOTHING at prangin mall while others get the most there.=.=
but i think its good also la..haha.just that i need clothes for CNY!!
few months din buy clothes dy.so proud of myself! X)
come,do this with me.. X)
follow me,she tells stories. =p
stuff i bought.
when is my mext day off?!
11:44 PM
Monday, November 7, 2011
另种悟
放弃该放弃的是无奈,
放弃不该放弃的是无能;
不放弃该放弃的是无知,
不放弃不该放弃的是执着。
the right way leads you a thousand miles.
a good day start from the sweetest smile. X)
p/s: i love this expression so much recently. " X) "