complex ceation which is faithfully made.

READ me and you'll know who i am and who am i.

you know you love me.

first day of final year.i ad stress.
this time,the tears no more drop down silently,was crying lk a mad howl.
nobody to express my feelings,God i know i knew me,help me kay?
so much discouragement bumping towards my day.
not independent enough? i dun think the value of independent is being an island.
talk to me dear..
nowhere to express.dats y,im here tonight.



“让我放下武装，像个孩子一样”,我希望...



its been another post exam..is currently in my very short and busy sem break.
and i am officially 21~
the feeling after turning into 21st,its like getting myself into more mature.
getting heavier on my shoulders with the responsibilities,thinking more about the future way.
its like..i am no more a 18years old girl,hoping someone to help up.
no.. independent!i need to push myself into another stage~=)
and this birthday i felt so different with the previous 20 birthdays..
i felt so blessed and God spoke to me.
He wants me to understand that not to see my future by my physical eyes.
because He is going to bless the people who love Him in the impossible way.
amen amen amen!=p
i am so grateful i grabbed the eternal love that never fails me!
and i had 5 birthday celebration this time!hahas
on 8th,HK suddenly had a small celebration for all the April and May babies.
then on the same day,my housemates celebrate for me after church.(small surprise la..but they failed to surprise me!=p i too smart d..haha)
then 10th,after my 4th paper,my dear J.A.S wants to celebrate with me.ah che cook for the first time!lol..really appreciate that..it was simple but memorable..because hes going to grad d..=(
then 11th,yong yong and sook kwen them celebrate with me..they bring me to a secret dine venue on that night.it was really touched that the 1st time,whole workers in the steakhouse(the band singers,waiter,waitress,and chef) come the our table and sing..lol..i dunno what they sing because i was just crying that time.
12th,my big day is ad over but my shepherd still wanna celebrate for me,i tot it was just a small celebration btw her and me,surprisingly she called out about 10ppl that night.lol..i was so touched they created me a wonderful time.so touching with the words and my fav dishes!
hehe..this year i had blown so many candles,and more than 10 bday wishes i've made!
it ard special enough though i din't get my dream 21st bday party~ ^^v

n yea,this short break.what i did?
i've been really a rush for the internship stuff.
searching job through wed,apply job,preparing documents,writing resume,consulting people..etc.
never-ending work..days is like school day without attending classes only.*phew*
anyhow,theres still some activities..
like celebrating grandpa's bday also..the family dinner..

my big wish is grandparents can get healthy..hope they're happy with their days..i know they love me a lots.
i love them too!will keep them in my prayer~ =]
besides,also got fellowship with the bro n sis lo..everytime i  see them,surely i will learn something.
because everytime i can feel their different..i am thankful for that~ =)
other than that,i also being the miss 'admad' fetching my brothers to tuition..lol
yah...big sister d now..lol..from a girl that dunno how to drive..n now..i fetching my brothers!lol..
hmm..entertainment?don't have lor..not even a movie..lol..
erm..got yumcha with parents lo..eat supper lo..hopefully i din get fat..
nothing d oh my holidays..lol.





 oh got la..one and only date with yong to starbucks for discussing the interns..lol..
give myself a cup of coffee during the break.satisfy?lol..ok ok lor~=p


pray for me ya bro n sis.
love ya~ =)



自问：“人生至此，意义何存？”

自答：“我只能说，神的旨意是美好的！”=）



another storm came.
the glass broke into pieces again.
as usual,He came and pick it up.
fixed it.
the picture above was the picture likely shown to me during the prayer.
i realized that,the road i walking,is the asphalt road.
it seems to be so rough,so dirty,a never-ending road.
but what i sight is the flowers and colors beside the road.
"I created the road for you.walk by faith.you'll see it."
not by my physical eyes.but by faith.
yes,that was like fantasy,thats why He is creative.
you cant imagine how wonderful the road it unless you continue to walk by faith.
fear-no-more!
i am not the slave for any worldly things.
i am the servant for you my Lord.
and i am thankful that was the asphalt road,instead of muds,or rocks.
the mercy Father,i will grow my faith.
~ Faith = Blessings ~