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Monday, November 29, 2010
眼睛哭肿了，冰块还能消肿吗?
巧克力甜品，为什么不能然心情好转？
眼泪为什么从此不听使唤？
阳光，变得刺眼了。
说话也变得劳累。
永远，我再也不能回来了。
就像那伤口留下了去不掉的印记。
是丑陋的，是显眼的，是讨厌的。
是谁？再这时候给我安慰？
选择再者时候写下的日记，是我唯一的去处。
别无他意，写下的字句，只想反映自己。
因为，我真的累了，活得很累，不想在伪装自己了，我并没有那么坚强。。
原谅我。。。
1:20 PM
i cant breathe now.can i just die like this?T.T
1:04 AM
Friday, November 19, 2010
念
当你抓得越紧的时候，你越害怕失去。
但是为什么现在松开了手，却还是害怕失去？
上帝，为什么你止住了我的眼泪，
却止不住我的思念？
守护我的天使啊，你握着我的手好吗？
领我到那圣洁的地方去，因为我知道。。
那里，没有牵挂，有的是犹如活水的爱。
10:55 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
spiritual gifting profile
i wish i am the angel for all. ^^
"He who descended is the very one who ascended higher than all the heavens, in order to fill the whole universe.) So Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers, to equip his people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up."---Ephesians 4:10-12
this week,HK lifegroup discovering about our personal spiritual gifting.
we've gone through our test.
theres around 190question.
and leads to 13categories.
heres my result:
1.creative communication
2.showing mercy
3.admin/ruling
4.evangelism
5.pastor/shepherd
6.teaching
seriously,1-3 i am predicted..
but evangelism pastoral and teaching is something i never know im gifted..
hahas..its like,'huh..?really??'
but praise god for that.=p
i am really so blessed to have all the gifting and talents.
he has amazed me once again.
i hope i can fully utilize my gifted talents to serve in his ministry.
"A gift or a present is the transfer of something without the expectation of receiving something in return. Although gift-giving might involve an expectation of reciprocity, a gift is meant to be free. In many human societies, the act of mutually exchanging money,goods, etc. may contribute to social cohesion. Economists have elaborated the economics of gift-giving into the notion of a gift economy. By extension the term gift can refer to anything that makes the other happier or less sad, especially as a favor, including forgiveness and kindness."--WiKi
11:47 PM
Monday, November 15, 2010
endures for the best
"to be loved,is to love first."
recently,was being shepherd about the lil spicy tastee love in our live -- the boy girl relationships.
and i got the first main thought,being a noble and gentle YOUNG LADY is tough for me.
you have to balance everything,such as being independent but gentle;
communicate but also a good listener.....etc.
anyway,im still trying my hard to learn and to be a godly woman. :)
in the same time,i think i need to start praying for the right godly man.
going to make a list of criteria to match with the Mr.Right.
just wait until the day that dream guy to appear.awww~
who doesn't want a marriage?
everyone.and thats a huge dream for every girls.
but now..i need to focus.
FOCUS on the word of God.
so that he can be my best teaching.
"seek His Kingdom and righteousness first,and everything will be given to you."--Matthew 6:33
love is knowledge. ;)
11:39 PM
Monday, November 8, 2010
我失恋了！！！
恋着恋着，这个人，爱了好久。从小一起长大，我们在一起的日子，
数不清，也算不完。
我们一起学会了懂事，
做错事，长知识，摆脱无知。
在相识，相爱的过程中。。
我们跌过无数次。。
所有的风风雨雨，我们经一事，长一智。
对彼此失望过无数次，但仍深爱着彼此。
过了这么多年，我们更深的了解彼此。
开始分辨对方的好与坏，丑与美，黑跟白，对与错。
我开始发现，我不能再抓着他不放。
太多太多的无知幼稚，
太多太多的软弱冲动，
太多太多的丑陋恶习，
我不能再接受了。
我要成长，就必须先学会放手。
对不起，我不能再握着你的手，
对不起，从今以后，我不会再对你回首，
对不起，我不会再为你泪流，
对不起，我必须勇敢向前走。
再见了，馨（心）。
我要摆脱丑陋的自我，活得更像我阿爸，作我父神的见证。
20年生活在一起，现在我不可以在犹豫。
我们分手吧！
7:30 PM
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
well.lets talk about this sem.
fyi,my handphone spoils,my big star also get cancer d,and ms.J's body also spoils during the week after lifegame.
many things come together in the pack week time.
act was my big star sick first..the gear box terminated d..T.T
need a huge fees for repair.so dad decided not to repair it d.
let it dying old.*sigh*
got no car use..back to my zero life-take bus everyday.
so..don't be shock because i'ce turned dark..very dark..gosh
even myself also cant accept im so dark skin now..huh..nvm la..
after that,handphone cnt use..keypads spoils d..
planned to buy a new one actually..
waiting my dad lo..lols..
now using mr.kiwi old phone..
appreciate that..lol..
his old smart phone actually,not even one years old.
consider still new lo..
blessed to use it temporary..lol
n then me myself,fall sick for the whole week..
a "pregnant" experience.
always feel like vomiting all the day..especially meal time.
n dizzy once i open my eyes..terrible week..
duno the weather diff from cameron n kampar..
really torture me alots..i got no appetite..and finally cant tahan went for clinic consultation.
n now..im ok d..eat alots again..=p
days now are quite active.
because of the bad result last sem..im now under probation..
i was really depress of that because i work the most last finals.
so disappointed on that.
but still thank god i din fail..
just i cant get ptptn..
pray that god will open the way for me..
im really stress on the course now..i need to work harder n harder this time..not to terminate by uni.
im so worried bout that..
even i can had nightmare that i fail in the test..
n mum gets it..she asked me weather i wanna transfer to mmu onot..
no!noway..im not gonna start my life back to zero..
i like malacca..but i still love kampar..
i need to study..i want to study..
i will work it on..
god pls give me wisdom..i need to change the method of studying..
n thanks my shepherd da jie n all the bros n sis who always encourage me in the tough time.
im really glad to have ur covering n support.
;)
well..kinda busy..this week gonna off to PJ d..
for bible conference..
expecting over it.
pray hard to gain another sparking thought of my life.
x.o.x.o
3:47 PM
