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Sunday, August 15, 2010
....inception?
its 4am in the morning.
i was a woke by a nightmare and i cant close my eyes again.
"he has a new girl.and he is going to marry her."
what is that?
my gosh..seriously,that was so true..
until it tears my heart.
i don't know how could my heart still beating for this.
the feelings was so real..
the scenery..the words..beating my heart as i got no heart anymore.
it was more than pain..
i just awoke from that dream..
i scared.insecure.
started to calm myself.
wondering how could he came into my dreamland again?
y?
jesus was that u?
was that a test to me?
...go out satan!!
u don't get a damn on me!!!
i prayed..
i need to chase it out completely in my mind.
as im going to wake up early morning to serve..i need my night to be peace.
i tried to get myself back on sleep.
once i close my eyes.
the scenery flows out..
the dream just continue as im watching a movie.
n i awake again.
its almost 6am now.
i can feel my heart beatings so hard.
i know..i need to breathe..
i don't want all this mess to confuse me..
y?y me?
if i can choose..
i wont wanna be a stranger for him.
i don't want..that was really torturing..
did u ever feel like this?
when u cant even say hi to someone u're really concern at..
u need to hide everything into urself..
everything!
i wish i could cry out now..
but no.
im even so afraid to drop a tear.
i cant be attacked by the emotions again..
baby not now..
because im gotta get my freedom!!
set me free!!!!
i fall for a stranger.
J.
5:58 AM
