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okie..i watched a drama last weekend at taiping.
hehe..like finally got time to watch drama.=p
and then the drama did mentioned about birthday.
and so..i thought of may is around the corner..
exciting?NEVER..
first time im so afraid of the coming of my birthday..
y?hmm..how to say..

1.because when the day come..im officially 20th..
yor..no more "1" in front d..
afraid of looking old..
now ad got salesman in the mall asked me am i a worker d..(=.=)
and even lecturer thought dat im his colleague..>.< (30yrs old ah) OMG!!!huh..can't believe dis.. *duh* 2.on that day..its my final test day.. 11th will test IS 12th will test business accounting both are scary.. i really very scared that my mood will be affected and cause me cannot focus. especially 12th is the last day of exam.. im praying hard that..i can fully focus on that day.. duwan to let my emotions take over me..>.<

3.im kinda afraid of celebration.
y?hmm..sad to say that i will feel the "lose" on the second day..
its not good that feeling..
i will think a lot..
for me,d next day..is a.......(duno how to describe)
even when now im thinking about that day..
my heart is like..seizing d.
gosh..hope i can overcome it..

hmm..yahh..so..thats y..
this year i just gt abit small small wishes:

1.i hope everyone around me..can healthy and happy always
2.i hope i can do better dis final
3.i hope "he" and "she" wont disappoint me dis year.(they're important to me until they can really crush my emotions)
4.i hope i can go travel on 12th after d paper..don't wana be alone.

huh..i dun think im able to blog on that few days..
so i make my wishes earlier..haha..very early
=p

so..speaking about i went back to taiping last weekends..
i've escape from "qing ming"
hehe..dad forced me to go but i refused to go..
had a very nice sleep on my sweet bed..hehe
played with curbie..hes becoming "longer" d..haha
hugged my huggie..
visit grandparents..
hmm..im so reject to accept they're getting older and weaker d..
i hope im able to visit them everytime i back to taiping..
phew..din hang out to anywhere dis time..
just wana rest at home..no time oso..
n my little bro transfer his school to aulong d..no more hua lian 1..
i hope dats d right choice for him..
yyeeea..dats all for now..im gonna get up and wash up d..(just wake up)=p

loves,
jess :j