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Thursday, October 29, 2009

i will never give up...

today is definitely a bad day for me..

i hate all my effort all my love all my feelings being ignore..

babe..i know you all might be not purposely..

but it really hurts..

how could you think dat it wont hurt me at all?

im not robot or super woman..

im either have my own thinking and feelings..

i dun expect u all treat me the same as me..

i dun expect u all rebate me anything..

i just hope i can be treaten as part of u all..

i love u all..

i dun meant to get mad in front of u all..

but i..just hurt..

im so frustrated..

y my effort are all nothing to everyone?

im so disappointed..

but after so many disappointment...

i know dat..its something i have to learn..

something that GOD want me to learn..

its a lesson..

no!im not gving up now!

im jia xin!

n ying..

i miss you..thank you for being dat supportive whenever i need you..

muacks!

XXX...i miss you badly..

i promise you'll be in my mind forever..i love you...

about d dress in those picture..

it was taken in the fitting room..

i kinda like it but i din buy them..reason?

its a little too sexy for me..

i dun think i suit dis kind of dress..

maybe you can say im too old traditional..

but..i just wana be like me..

***END***

9:14 PM

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

突然好想你

its been so long..

i never shed a tear..

until.....

i heard this song..

五月天-突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

its 100% describing my feelings..

tears rolling inside my eyes..never fall down..

m i tougher?

but somethings pulling me down..n down...

i need to cry!yes i do..

its time to release out..

its time to let it go again..

sing into my heart..cry out of my heart..

somebody..rescue me..?

8:27 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

1st sunday in my 2nd sem..

weekends..wad a boring weekend for me..

1st week still nothing much to do..

so i went for a jog..alone..

hehe..

not for the first time..

its nice to jog alone too..

can run as ur own speed..

can see things..

can listen music..

can think alots..

anyway..today is a fine day..

i jog d one and a half rounds of westlake..keke..

my target is 2 rounds..mission!=p

have to learn to protect myself since nobody protect me..lol

nola..its a good training for me..

can upgrade my skills too..hehe..

BUT..ish..

my anemia..

still there..

i feel damn dizzy after running for a round..

after reach home..

i cant tahan anymore n get a cup of sugar and regain my energy..

finally feel better after that..

im going to cope with dat!

duwan everytime run also will dizzy..>.<

feel so weak!

im going to be strong!im going to be a tough woman!!!

u'll find out dat..

this is my legs' structure..lol

i walk lkdat..

at night..went out for dinner with housemates..

after dinner..we saw a group of ppl were having a drama shooting!

omg!1st time seeing ppl shooting drama..

excited man!

duno y dey choose kampar old town oso..

and den v decided to find out..

oooo~dey r taking a kampung style scene..

d actors suit lk kampung kampung style..

who were them?

haha..dey looks familiar..

but duno wads their name..ah beng?or ah seng?=p

malaysian actors..

and den i kepo..

"erm..excuse me..what drama is dis?"

and a helper ans me

"a astro drama.."

"ooo..whats s name?"

---showing me a "x" action---

"duno?"

"cannot be told.."

ish...

act mistery sumore..lol

dey take quite a long time shooting a scene..

fews take from different angle..

and den change angle..

set up everythying..

den repeat everything again..

whoa~how much time dey need to complete d drama?*wondering*

dats d director..sitting in front of d monitor..

d actors..

gt 2 looks familiar..

but duno wads their name..

n one of d camera man is a foreign guy..

not bad huh..lol

wana know whether i got go in the scene or not?

haha!

stay tuned on astro la!

X.O.X.O

9:57 PM

Thursday, October 22, 2009

hmm..nothing special with this post..

just to update some of the pictures..

what i can say is..im satisfied with my life now..

and im wanting to make it better!

some of the feeings..show it out you can change many things..

but some of the feelings..you're forced to keep it deep down inside..

love life~

10:07 PM

Sunday, October 18, 2009

new skill

during hols..

i've upgrade my singing skills..

i learnt something new..

i wanted to find out what is actually my sound's characteristics..

but i duno y i cant hear anything..>.<

wish i could find out someday..

let me show you what i've learnt..

song:对不起

我看见你脸上的皱纹是你曾为我付出的见证

我看见你头上的白发一丝一丝都显伟大

我承认有时我不听话上头你的心却又不知道

我知道我常放纵自己盼望你能够原谅

是我的任性让你伤了心是我的悖逆让你在哭泣

是我的不小心惹你的气我却又不知如何说对不起

我知道爸爸你为我劳心我知道妈妈你为我艰辛

我只想告诉你我的感激轻轻地对你说我真的爱你

我只想告诉你我的感激轻轻地对你说愿上帝祝福你

technique applied:soft and smooth voice..need not to applied too much skills for this song..

this is the first time i sing and play keyboard by myself..its been years i din touch my keyboard and piano d..obviously,improvement is needed..=p

song:月光手札

青春是窗边那份月光手札

遇见你至千至夜也无暇

曾经的夜里你会点灯开始写她

用世上最清脆温柔的笔画

你不爱了吧所以渐渐的将笔搁下

只剩我一个人傻傻

在月光下静静翻阅那些话

爱不爱我你都懒得回答

原来我付出的年华只换到你的潇洒

我的愿望奢侈吗

就算只是一小束花

爱不爱我你都懒得回答

我的眼泪你也慢慢别过头不再去擦

我是一把无奈的雪花

漫步在你给的炎夏

technique applied:still soft vocal..but add in真假音转换和低气音的控制

eee..the lower pitch is not so reach..=p

song:记得

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

technique applied:声音的浑厚度加上装饰音,拉长音的稳定度,中期的运用.

but i think i failed this song..im not satisfied with it..>.<

i need more improvement..

anyone can help me to find out my vocal characteristics?

comment is needed for more improvement! =)

10:07 PM

end of the y1s1 hols..=(

eee...end of my year1 sem1 semester break d..

haiz..gona back to kampar again..

i dun feel like studyng since i get a bad result after so much stress and har works..

its so depressing..

but i have to chang emyself..

i think mybe i used the wrong method to study d..

hmm..im gonna pay more attention n focus on my study life..

so..what i did at the end of my hols?

i went to sia house at taiping villa again..

its big enough..i curled her hair and also mine..and then we went to sing k..

nobody else..just we two..

its the first time she sing in the k..

thats d changes she've made after she got a singing guy..=)

after that..i did attend hua thiam's birthday gathering too..

frankly..its d coldest wedding i've attend..lol

but its ok la..

just take about an hour..=p

he said dis is the first birthday party for him..

hmm..no comment..=p

anyway..happy 19th to him..

and..dis funny guy(njw) is acting there..lk he always do..=.=

day before i back to kampar..

an outing with sigina,oggy and alyssa..

we went mcd again..lol

and oso sing k..

peace with d sundae cone!

driver..no eating!!=p

mouth is not big enough to swollen it..lol

ater that..i went to fga for ka lok's birthday celebration..

long time din go d..

d first feeling is..im old there..>.<

haha..but we have fun too..

playing true or dare and they gave him a surprise then..

there are some pics on my facebook to view..

and this is the family photo..

dun spot in my face..>.<

saturday..back to kampar with oggy and pui mun(she just came play)

the mood is definitely down on that day..

im gonna miss my huggie..

my little bro and my family too..XOXOXOXOXOXO

new sem..another new start for me!

pray for me!!=)

2:17 PM

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

all in one

elo~buddy!
im back to my blog..
holidays at taiping..but house internet rosak..>.<

lets start update my blog with exam period...
2weeks days..with a pair of panda eyes..pimples on my face..
studying late at nights with housemates..
craps together..
eat together..
we enjoyed ourselves in stress..herher..
i stress until i cant wake up in the morning for my first paper..
it was my first time..
n its my last time man!

im not gonna repeat the same mistake again!never!>.<