"grow up and take control of your own life..live a life that is based on god's words,not men's words.."
yup..im going to do this..=)
i need His words to fill my daily life..shower me everyday..
anyway..im still a plant dat r still growing..hehe..=p
1:58 AM
Thursday, July 30, 2009
i need an answer
to love or to be loved..which should i choose?
9:20 PM
Sunday, July 26, 2009
im freed
its 4 in the mid nite..
n im still awake..
bcuz fanally i get my answer..
wad i've been searching for so long..
wad is actually bothering me..is d answer..
n d fact is..
hes havin a new one..
yup..its hurt..
but after all..
i feel im released..=)
at least i get the answer..
thx god..
for giving such mentally release while im really tention..
i've learnt a lesson..
you will always need to loss something just to gain something,n so called life.
3:55 AM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
那一年,这一天
十九年前的今天,上帝创造了一位在我生命很具影响力的人。
他,曾经给我全部。
让我知道,身边总是有个人支持我,鼓励我。
在我觉得那是世界的尽头的时候,给予我安慰。
告诉我,如何选择正确的道路。
让我看到未来,让我对生充从满希望。
他,
是我最熟悉的陌生人。
我曾经说过,
我会在他身边度过每一年的今天。
我没有忘记过。。。
只是,我没有机会实现它了。
他,曾经是我认为上帝赐给我最好的礼物。
他是上帝派来的天使,让他能够在我需要的时候帮助我。
我天真地以为,我真有那么幸运,可以那么幸福。
我很珍惜这份礼物。
深怕他从我身边不见了。
最终,我还是逃不掉。
我。。还是回到一个人。
很遗憾,不能再在你身边,看着你开心看你笑。
从来,你没有让我知道,你会离开我。
就这样。。我什么也挽回不了。
心理的疑惑,永远解不了。
心里的感受,你永远听不到。
默默的祝福你,可以找到你要走的路。
我没有忘记你。生日快乐,宝贝。
不能在你身边,我真的很难过。T。T
但是我会把它说在心里。
谢谢你,给我的甜蜜。
人家说,每一首歌的背后都有一个故事。
范范的《到不了》
充分表达了我的心情。
送给我再也到不了的他。
你眼睛会笑
弯成一条桥
终点却是我
永远到不了
感觉你来到是风的呼啸
思念像苦药 竟如此难熬 每分每秒
我找不到 我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好
我什么都不要 知不知道
若你懂我 这一秒
我想看到 我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠紧 谨拥抱不敢
漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到
我又录下我唱的歌,但是放不上。
不知道,我又没有机会,亲口唱给他听。
所有的千言万语,希望有一天,你会收到。
最后,我想说的是,
爱,是不能衡量的东西。
它不能被取代,不能被计算,不能被拆散。
上帝对人的爱是永无止境的爱。
从来没有被任何东西取代过,也从来没有觉得这是个麻烦,
从来没有嫌弃过,也从来没有要求回报过。
为什么我们人总是斤斤计较?
总是搬出一大堆理由来逃避,推卸责任?
只要尽心尽意尽力去爱,
没有任何东西可以胜过这份真挚的爱。
愿天下所有人,都能被爱充满,并能借着上帝的爱,
传达给世界各个角落的人。
因为,我们爱,只因他先爱我们。
11:56 PM
short weekend at tpg
hello..im bek.. yup..i spend my weekends at hometown.. the busy life here,really maked me exhausted.. i had 5 tests for the past few weeks.. n i lost my own time.. i cant do my own things..not even devotion everyday.. i felt so empty inside.. everyday study study n study.. im currently learning how to have time management..
but d busy life doesn't end yet..>.<
i stil gt 3 tests,2 assignments n 2 presentation for d cumin 4 weeks..
dis called degree life..=.= ya..ok.. talk about my weekends.. i finally can have some relaxation time.. theres a few things i would like to share.=) firstly..i went to sepetang with my family to eat curry mee.. whoa!i misses it so so much! we stopped by at simpang to fetch my grandma first.. then only we headed there.. still.. theres very crouded..hot.. but the mee was realy..mmm~~nice!nice! i ate alots.. but it was the only meal i take for d whole day..herher.. after dat..we bek to simpang again.. i learnt how to drive..
n dat was the first time to drive my dad's new car.. =)
i think i've improved my skills..lol..hopefully,i can drive steadily in d cumin days.. lastly.. something broke my heart again.. the days i treasure the most.. the one who i love the most.. its just a rubbish for him.. ya..he said so.. i can't imaging d sentence came out from his mouth.. its not lovely at all.. i cant control my tears stop dropping out from my eyes.. i thought someone with god will know how to show his love to everyone around.. im always learning to do lkdis.. but why? why me? why dis is the result of putting my efford? u once told me.. love is patient and kind.. it is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.. love does not demands its own way.. love is not irritable,it does not remember other's wrong.. love does not gives up..n it is always hopeful.. love endures through every sirsumstance.. n love..never fails.. T.T i still remember it clearly.. its lk something juz happened yesterday.. how could u? u sound so evil now.. i thought my love can melts ur heart.. but u're no longer mine.. i heard dat u're having a happy life.. enjoying ur days wothout me.. y im the only one dat still sad alone here? i want to b tough..im always the tougher one btw u n me.. i hope..i hope u wont forget me at least.. this is d only wish for me after all d disappointment..
12:14 AM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
who said sweet dream is sweet?
when u awake n realized dat everything is just a dream..
a nice n sweet dream..
theres nothing in the reality..
it reali will crush ur heart..
yea..
i dreamt..
i dreamt for 2 nights d.
same person,same thing..
but d reality din't change anything..
im bleeding..
it realy hurts..
i rather to have a nightmare..
dat won't give me any hope n disappointment..
pls lord..i duwan to have d same dream again..T.T
im so despair...
10:50 AM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
m'sia mind festival V @ utar kampar
this is the mind festival at utar kampar during 10th to 12th july.. theres alots of functions at heritage hall.. mind iQ games,talks,teraphy classes... its reali educational fun..haha.. we went there during our class break..
me n yong yong wif our new fren..=p
this is the real model of a baby brain
this is a real human brain
i was testing my blood pressure n heart palpitation..fortunately,im quite normal..lol
this is the real human head after plasticine..u can muscles,skin,blood vessel....
its kinda frightening..>.< the hair n earloobes..gosh...
indeed..its reali very useful n we've gained knowledge there..
p/s:i've taken a mind iQ test..im normal oh!! =p
1:01 PM
Monday, July 13, 2009
thai trip
this is oso a post i shud posted it earlier..heh..
i went to thailandwith my family n my dad's boss..
this is the 3rd time i went there..
sit "put put car" again..
eat tom yam again..
lol..
bt dis is the 1st time we went for agua show!!
haha!its realli very funnt show..
theres a entertaintment plaza..
which u can enjoy ur dinner n den watch d show afterwards..
all the aguasss..omg!
they're even thiiner damn me..
their body LOOKS so perfect..
but after d show..
my feelings was so complicated..
i sis felt pity for them..
once they're getting older..their body cannot mailtain d..
so they just can act as those funny,fat,n ugly character in the show..
its the reality dat i see in the show..
so guys..better DON'T BECOME AN AGUA!!!
Xp
focus on the costume..its just a STAR on his/her breast..
my family =)
my dad's boss n his family..his daughter oso call jia xin..lol
the dinner at d plaza..reali nice
songkla seaside lunch
my cute bro..
i bought d hand made flower wif buttleflies..lol
11:49 AM
Sunday, July 5, 2009
westlake 1345 lovely housemates
these are my new housemates la..=) we owaz havin fun 2gether.. they are..jos..tayshawn..jeff..evon..pei vern.. hehe..v cook very often..i had learnt alots of cooking techniques..wakaka.. im the chef most of the time..=p frankly..im havin stress life now.. havin degree life.. pressure wif all the assignments,tests.. frens prob,love prob,n love prob..=.= luckily i hv them.. which will cherish me owaz..=) especially jos..thx alotz.. alwaz listen to me when im sad.. im thakful to hv u when im reali down.. i hope we can hv a great life in the cumin 3 years.. lov ya'al! uumuaxx!!